And there’s a message that I’m sending out Like a telegraph to your soul

Artist- Johne Waite
Song of the day- Missing you

As my alarm went off at 6am this morning, John Waite abruptly sung me awake from my restless sleep to this song. Now I am pretty confident at this point goodbye songs are just mocking me and slapping me in the face as I've heard 3 of the ones I have and plan on posting already this week! But I find this song to be a great plan of denial for goodbyes. Cuz we all know how well denial works. So next week I plan to poof up my hair, shatter pay phones, and put on my favorite aqua sports coat and single dangle earring to hit the town just to prove how much I ain't missing!



Every time I think of you
I always catch my breath
And I’m still standing here
And you’re miles away
And I'm wondering why you left
And there’s a storm that’s raging
Through my frozen heart tonight

I hear your name, in certain circles
And it always makes me smile
I spend my time,thinking about you
And it’s almost driving me wild
And there's a heart that’s breaking
Down this long distance line tonight

I ain’t missing you at all
Since you’ve been gone, away
I ain’t missing you
No matter, what I might say

There’s a message, in the wires
And I’m sending you this signal tonight
You don’t know, how desperate I’ve become
And it looks like I’m losing this fight
In your world I have no meaning
Though Im trying hard to understand
And it's my heart that’s breaking
Down this long distance line tonight

I ain’t missing you at all
Since you’ve been gone, away
I ain’t missing you
No matter, what my friends say

And there’s a message that I’m sending out
Like a telegraph to your soul
And if I can’t bridge this distance
Stop this heartbreak overload

I ain’t missing you at all
Since you’ve been gone, away
I ain’t missing you
No matter, what my friends say
I ain’t missing you, I aint missing you
I can lie to myself
And there's a storm that's raging
Through my frozen heart tonight
I aint missing you at all
Since you’ve been gone, away
I ain’t missing you,
No matter, what my friends say
Aint missing you
I ain’t missing you, I aint missing you
I can lie to myself
I ain’t missing you
I aint missing you

It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time

Artist- Michelle Branch
Song of the day- Goodbye to you

Today as I was frantically rambling off my mental school stress to my sister this song came to mind. It is a bit on the dramatic side but made me think back to wanting to go back to chicago to start nursing school, knowing that I could be free to lose my mind from school stressing, knowing my sis would be there to keep me stable. I clearly know I'm not dramatically losing everything I thought I knew, but perhaps I'm losing a bit of that comfortable stability my crazed mind has grown accustomed to. Look out world, here comes the crazy.



Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star

So take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face

Artist- Phil Collins
Song of the day- Take a look at me now

I don't have enough time or probably blog space to go into my depth of love for phil collins. But know that it is vast. And every time I experience a dramatic turn of events in my life I always secretly hear a phil collins drumbeat interlude and believe no song about goodbyes can quite capture the life changing moment like collins can. Sing it phil, sing it.



How can I just let you walk away, just let you leave without a trace
When I stand here taking every breath with you, ooh
You're the only one who really knew me at all

How can you just walk away from me,
when all I can do is watch you leave
Cos we've shared the laughter and the pain and even shared the tears
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, oh there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me,
just the memory of your face
Ooh take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And you coming back to me is against the odds and that's what I've got to face

I wish I could just make you turn around,
turn around and see me cry
There's so much I need to say to you,
so many reasons why
You're the only one who really knew me at all

So take a look at me now, well there's just an empty space
And there's nothing left here to remind me, just the memory of your face
Now take a look at me now, cos there's just an empty space

But to wait for you, is all I can do and that's what I've got to face
Take a good look at me now, cos I'll still be standing here
And you coming back to me is against all odds
It's the chance I've gotta take

Take a look at me now

Well, the bells out in the church tower chime, Burning clues into this heart of mine.

Artist- Jeff Buckley
Song of the day- Last Goodbye

The song that ignited my passion for Jeff Buckley was the first time I heard today's song. I couldn't wait to seem him live, somehow get him to fall in love with me and force him to sing to me forever. Then I soon discovered he had died a tragic mysterious death and so died my short star crossed dream. Yet even in a badly made 90's video and grunge theme,his ability to feel a song and hit those heart quivering notes still translates. Even though he seems to be initiating the goodbye he somehow convincingly makes me feel sad for him. It's about running through all the reasons you don't want to say goodbye but knowing you should do it. Boo to goodbyes, but always yes to Jeff Buckley goodbyes, swoon.



This is our last goodbye
I hate to feel the love between us die.
But it's over
Just hear this and then I'll go:
You gave me more to live for,
More than you'll ever know.

Well, this is our last embrace,
Must I dream and always see your face?
Why can't we overcome this wall?
Baby, maybe it's just because I didn't know you at all.

Kiss me, please kiss me,
But kiss me out of desire, babe, and not consolation.
Oh, you know it makes me so angry 'cause I know that in time
I'll only make you cry, this is our last goodbye.

Did you say, "No, this can't happen to me"?
And did you rush to the phone to call?
Was there a voice unkind in the back of your mind saying,
"Maybe, you didn't know him at all,
you didn't know him at all,
oh, you didn't know"?

Well, the bells out in the church tower chime,
Burning clues into this heart of mine.
Thinking so hard on her soft eyes, and the memories
Offer signs that it's over, it's over.

I lost a piece of my mind and you can see it on my face my heart is burning this time but there aint no fire escape

Artist-Grace Potter & the Nocturnals
Song of the day: Goodbye Kiss

The realization hit me today that my sister will be moving across the country in one week. There are few people in my life who have shaped me more than my sister and as many times as I literally follow in her foot steps, she can't take a hint and keeps moving away from me...or maybe it's really the stalker in me who can't take the hint. Either way I hate goodbyes more than most things in life and sadly can make a timeline of my life by the times I've had to say goodbye to people I really care about. Such is the price of constantly moving and not living in the same place your whole life I guess. But since I probably won't be able to stop thinking about it all week long, I thought I'd pay tribute to "goodbye songs" as I prepare to say farewell. Today's song is a bit more peppy when it comes to the subject and since I haven't stopped listening to this album since I bought it, it was the first kind of goodbye that came to mind. Got a favorite goodbye song? Send it my way!



Verse 1
I lost a piece of my mind
and you can see it on my face
my heart is burning this time
but there aint no fire escape

Pre chorus
that little part of me that used to be so strong,
is stumbling over now that I know youre moving on baby

Chorus
You were never gonna wait for me
babe I really hate to say it,
but Im gonna say it anyway

You, you know youre not the only one
Id rather just cut and run
than set the blind on yesterday
so lets just call this what it is
and give me one more goodbye kiss

Verse 2
I thought that you were the only one
who could keep my feet on the ground
I came to an empty room
and I know youre leaving town

Pre Chorus
that little part of me, thats gone for good
that was the only thing making me do the things I should

Chorus
and you were never gonna wait for me
babe I really hate to say it,
but Im gonna say it anyway

You, you know youre not the only one
Id rather just cut and run
than set the blind on yesterday
so lets just call this what it is
and give me one more goodbye kiss

Bridge
Ooh you really, really made it hard on me
you really, really were a mystery
you really, really took it out on me baby
but now Ive solved it and Im sad to say I see

Chorus
that you were never gonna wait for me
babe I really hate to say it,
but Im gonna say it anyway

You, you know youre not the only one
Id rather just cut and run
than set the blind on yesterday
so lets just call this what it is
and give me one more goodbye kiss

All your diction dripping with disdain Through the pain I always tell the truth

Artist- Vampire Weekend
Song of the day- Oxford Comma

The thing I missed least about being a writer is rewrites. I hate them with a fiery passion of three suns and ignorantly assumed that getting into nursing I could at least avoid rewrites for the rest of my life. Of course deciding to go to grad school came with the fun surprise of research. There was also a reason I majored in fiction writing, to avoid researching and happily making up what I thought was interesting. Alas, I am both forced to currently rewrite and assume making up information would be frowned upon at this level of education. Thus as I begin the horrid process of fixing my own work I realize just how bad at grammar and word play I really am. Which brings to mind this song, which I've been humming as I write. I hate colons and apostrophes and the use of big words to sound smart and commas to break up my run on sentences. I happen to find run on sentences charming and how I talk in a rambling mumble fashion that apparently just doesn't translate to the academic page. To this I say, who really does give a fuck about an oxford comma? Not this lady. Though the song perhaps symbolizes something more I've been thinking about lately. How we can make a big deal about such ridiculous things: how much money we have, what we wear, who we've met, what we know about pop culture, and on, and on. I've been at fault for perhaps all these things and happily define or lie about them to make myself feel better. And why? who give's an f? I'd like to say not this lady, but then what makes up our identity? hmm things I'd like to ponder instead of reworking sentences so they "make sense" to "readers"....what's charming about that?



Who gives a fuck about an Oxford comma?
I've seen those English dramas too, they're cruel
So if there's any other way to spell the word
It's fine with me, with me

Why would you speak to me that way?
Especially when I always said that I
Haven't got the words for you
All your diction dripping with disdain
Through the pain
I always tell the truth

Who gives a fuck about an Oxford comma?
I climbed to Dharamsala too, I did
I met the highest Lama, his accent sounded fine
To me, to me

Check your handbook, it's no trick
Take the chapstick, put it on your lips
Crack a smile, adjust my tie
Know your boyfriend, unlike other guys

Why would you lie about how much coal you have?
Why would you lie about something dumb like that?
Why would you lie about anything at all?
First the window, then it's to the wall
Lil' Jon, he always tells the truth

Check your passport, it's no trick
Take the chapstick, put it on your lips
Crack a smile, adjust my tie
Know your butler, unlike other guys

Why would you lie about how much coal you have?
Why would you lie about something dumb like that?
Why would you lie about anything at all?
First the window, then it's through the wall
Why would you tape my conversations?
Show your paintings at the United Nations
Lil' Jon, he always tells the truth

It's not that we're scared It's just that it's delicate

Artist- Damien Rice
Song of the day- Delicate

I have to be in a certain mood for Damien Rice, and usually that mood is wanting to be horribly depressed, but sometimes I just want sleepy soft music to lull me to sleep. This mood also includes Damien Rice, till I get to the intense emotional bridges and get too worked up to sleep. But boy does he write a nice bridge. I luv the ability a change in key or a frantic stringed instrument can heighten any feeling. So whether you need a tune to sleep to or a tune to moan to, this one's for you.



We might kiss when we are alone
When nobody's watching
We might take it home
We might make out when nobody's there
It's not that we're scared
It's just that it's delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

We might live like never before
When there's nothing to give
Well how can we ask for more
We might make love in some sacred place
The look on your face is delicate

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?

So why do you fill my sorrow
With the words you've borrowed
From the only place you've know
And why do you sing Hallelujah
If it means nothing to you
Why do you sing with me at all?