Well, I crippled your heart a hundred times And still can't work out why

Favorite: Stolen band
Artist: Frightened Rabbit
Song of the Day: Modern Leper

I've stolen many things from my sister...DVDs, clothes, cities, part of a personality, but often prided myself on my own favorites in music. However, when returning from oversees a few years ago my sister dumped a load of new artists on me which included today's artist. Now I am obsessed with music, clearly to a sometimes ridiculous extent waiting hours before a concert to be front row and becoming googly eyed just talking about fav musicians and the only time I've ever seen my sister come smidgen close to this ounce of ridiculousness (minus coldplay obviously) is for Frightened Rabbit. I've pushed and pulled my way to the front, stood dumbfounded at the sight of them alongside her. And happily so. For today's song was the first of theirs and any song I became obsessed with when returning from a hiatus of music and seeing them live only caused an obsession with every song. The lyrics are smart, the energy is high and the band is dreamy. So yes this is my favorite stolen band, but to be fair I'm pretty sure she stole them from somebody else. So I guess you are allowed to steal them too.



A cripple walks amongst you
All you tired human beings
He's got all the things a cripple has
Not working arms and legs
And vital parts fall from his system
And dissolve in Scottish rain
Vitally he doesn't miss them
He's too fucked up to care
Well, is that you in front of me?
Coming back for even more of exactly the same
You must be a masochist to love a modern leper
On his last leg
On his last leg
Well, I crippled your heart a hundred times
And still can't work out why
You see, I've got this disease I can't shake
And I'm just rattling through life
Well, this is how we do things now
Yeah, this is how the modern stay scared
So I cut out all the good stuff
Yeah, I cut off my foot to spite my leg
Well, is that you in front of me?
Coming back for even more of exactly the same
You must be a masochist to love a modern leper
On his last leg
Well, I am ill
But I'm not dead
And I don't know which of those I prefer
Because that limb which I have lost
Well, it was the only thing holding me up
Holding me up
Well, I'm lying on the ground now
Walking through the only door
Well, I have lost my eyesight
Like I said I would
But I still know
And that is you in front of me
And you are back for even more of exactly the same
Well, are you a masochist to love a modern leper
On his last leg
And you are not ill
And I'm not dead
Doesn't that make us the perfect pair?
Just you and me
We'll start again
And you can tell me all about what you did today
What you did today

Am I here? Of course I am, yes All I need is your hand to drag me out again

Artist- Frightened Rabbit
Song of the day- The loneliness and the scream

I've had this song on repeat today after spending a good hour and 3 half albums looking for what musical mood I was in. And it was a very frightened rabbit mood. The song is very different then most songs about loneliness that are more static and dark where this one has a kinetic feel which is so unique and persevering that always makes my step slightly quicker when I listen to it, like I'm running to get out of it, running towards the scream. And just when I thought I couldn't love the songs lyrics, clapping and chanting more, I saw the video and it just about broke my heart to little pieces and made me want to buy aviator goggles at the same time. It captures something so perfect and tragic and happy and mad in an everyday life that you know you've passed by this person tons of times and though you've never seen their entire day, know this is what they are experiencing just by looking into their eyes. and man old men just kill me. so here's to the loneliness and the scream we run towards or away from.



Can you hear the road from this place?
Can you hear footsteps, voices?

Can you see the blood on my sleeve?
I have fallen in the forest
Did you hear me?

In the loneliness
oh the loneliness and the scream
to prove to everyone that I exist
in the loneliness
oh the loneliness and the scream
to bring the blood to the front of my face again

Am I here?
Of course I am, yes
All I need is your hand
to drag me out again

It wasn't me, I didn't dig this ditch
I was walking for weeks
before I fell in

To the loneliness
oh the loneliness and the scream
to prove to everyone that I exist
in the loneliness
oh the loneliness and the scream
to fill a thousand black balloons with air

Fall down, find God
just to lose it again
glue the community together
we were hammering it

Fell down, found love
but I can lose it again
but now our communal heart
it beats miles from here

Up to my knees now, do I wait? Do I dive? The sea has seen my like before though it’s my first And perhaps last time

Artist- Frightened Rabbit
Song of the day- Swim until you can't see land

So my excitement for starting to swim laps today with my big hearted friend Suzanne made me think of this song and pretty much the constant analogy that has followed me through the years of "diving in." A few weeks ago I heard this quote that went something like, "The path to your greatest accomplishment is often through your greatest fear" and I think it stuck with me cuz I couldn't get over how true that was. That so often the things we're afraid of and spend so much time avoiding, often lead us to what we were always meant to do, what could be our proudest moment. So whatever is causing you to not dive in today I say screw it and jump on into the ice cold water. You might fail, you might drown, but not matter what you'll make a splash and just keep swimming, swimming, swimming.