By the way all my body really needs Is a spirited soul for the pain to ease

Artist- The Lonely Forest
Song of the day- (I Am) the love addict

So I was going to play a different Lonely Forest song that is far more angsty and how I feel at the moment barely having a moment the breath with impending graduation, 12 hour hospital shifts, tests that can stop me from graduating and the all impending doom of trying to find a job, having a career and being a grown up. This has been taking up most of my time as you can tell by the lack of song posts that will probably be sporadic throughout my new sporadic schedule the next few weeks.

But as I took a tiny break to go see them live with a few friends, I could feel just the tiny bit of relief during their set and especially during this song. 1) because live music just makes me enjoy life more 2) If my philosophy on life had a theme song I think today's song would be it. I have no idea of the band's background but I find many of their lyrics highlight my beliefs system and if I could somehow articulate in a poppy rock song how I see my life being lived out as a Christian, it'd be this. plain and simple. And when I'm actually able to let go of all this stress and worry and guilt and fear about myself and really live in this belief of being addicted to love, the all encompassing agape kind of love for everything in our path...when I can I live in that, the type of feeling I feel is the kind this song gives me when I hear this song: happiness, optimism, no fear, a mission, the desire for other people to feel that way cuz it's freeing and makes me wanna go love on people and remember that in the end that's what this is all about not the other stuff. And when I hear this song I remember that and smile instead of worry. And if you're like me, right now I'd rather smile than worry.



When I thought I had nothing
Nothing good to give.
You appeared, won my heart
And Showed me I must die to live
Take my pride
Please remove these selfish thoughts
Save me from the world,
I wanna be addicted to love
I wanna be addicted to love
I wanna be addicted to Love (oh oh oh oh)
By the way all my body really needs
Is a spirited soul for the pain to ease
But I know that this road, it isn’t going to bring me peace
Give me something new For my soul to use
Something beautiful for my heart to abuse
The drugs are never enough
I wanna be addicted to love
I wanna be addicted to love
I wanna be addicted
And why are we so, Love-less?
I’m worried, please hurry
And why are we so love-less?
I’m worried, please take me home
I wanna be addicted to love
I wanna be addicted to love (I want to be) X8
I want to be addicted to love (oh oh oh)

all I can do is make other’s bleed a prideful ego fire I’m eager to feed

Artist- The Lonely Forest
Song of the day- Woe is me...I am Ruined

So I have a new band crush. After they played this as their first song I knew I had fallen in love, and not just because the lead singer looks like and unfamous Jake Gyllenhaal. They have the vocals and cleaver writing of a young Death Cab but a newness and innocence of a band starting out and from a small island off of Washington state. Plus self deprecating rock? My favorite. And as I go to my last pediatric clinical tomorrow I can't help but think of how this song kinda explains my growing relationship with kids this past six months, from singing to toddlers as they whack my guitar and cry, my attempt at assessing little Hondurans as they scream at the site of me, me playing with a chronically ill kid for hours or attempting to give them a bath as they refuse to sit still or shriek like I"m torturing them, or being one of the first people to ever hold a brand new living person in the world...sometimes it's horrifying, sometimes they look at me and cry as I do things that seem to hurt them or make them bleed all in the name of making them feel better which they just can't understand, but sometimes it's the greatest thing I know I'll ever do.



he gripped my hand like a vice because
I stole her, a fox from a wolf
it seems to me we’re one in the same man
we both have fallen short
time and time again

and...
all I can do is make other’s bleed
a prideful ego fire I’m eager to feed
and they say I’m a good guy
and they say I’m a good guy

can you meet me in that place
when I’m too ashamed to show my face?

and...
all I can do is make others bleed
a prideful ego fire I’m eager to feed
and they say I’m a good guy
and they say I’m a good guy