Who has to say goodbye It’s always say goodbye

Artist- William Fitzsimmons (Pink Ganter Remix)
Song of the day: So this is goodbye

The rainy day is exentuating my sad yet dancy mood. And though I assumed there was no song to express the absurd oxymoron of emotions, some clever sound mixer created this little masterpiece I just stumbled upon. So here's a little rainy day jam for all you oxymoron of emotions out there.



The thing never now, were you
You’re gone and I won’t see you anymore
You left my love on the run
And said that you were leaving
And you won’t come home again (x2)

And I’ll miss you like you’re dead
But I never got to grieve you
Cause I saw you
In the arms of someone else

So your phantom follows me
Like a child would his mother
Or a lover who never said goodbye
It’s only saying goodbye

And I cry myself to sleep
And you thought I was happy
I was lonely
Had nowhere to go

And I heard that you moved on
Found a brand new family
And changed your married name
And everything has changed

And I’ll miss you like you’re dead
And find a way to grieve you
Cause I need to
Try and start again

And your ghost will have to leave
Like a child would his mother
Or a lover
Who has to say goodbye
It’s always say goodbye
It’s always say goodbye
It’s always say goodbye
Goodbye
It’s always say goodbye
It’s always say goodbye
It’s always say goodbye
It’s always say goodgoodgood…

No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight In the shadow of your heart

Artist- Florence + The Machine
Song of the day- Cosmic Love

I'm pretty sure I will eventually post the entire first album of Florence and the Machine because each song is so friggin amazing, and I will be forever in debt to my friend Sarah for introducing me to her. Today's song might just be my favorite and most dramatic song on the album. It seems fitting to post as I finally snagged my concert tickets and can best express my joy and love for seeing her perform as cosmic. She has the grand ability to turn any moment epic as I plug my headphones in and let it soundtrack my daily life. And believe you me, my life is opposite of epic so it's nice to snag a little piece of it every once in a while. So if you ever run into me on the train frantically doing air drums, or I run past you dramatically to get to class like I'm running away or towards a zombie apocalypse, just assume this song is playing in my ears.



A falling star fell from your heart and landed in my eyes
I screamed aloud, as it tore through them, and now it's left me blind

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

And in the dark, I can hear your heartbeat
I tried to find the sound
But then it stopped, and I was in the darkness,
So darkness I became

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

I took the stars from our eyes, and then I made a map
And knew that somehow I could find my way back
Then I heard your heart beating, you were in the darkness too
So I stayed in the darkness with you

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

The stars, the moon, they have all been blown out
You left me in the dark
No dawn, no day, I'm always in this twilight
In the shadow of your heart

Birds sing for you, You can make the blue sky blush You’ve got them all fooled But I am burned out on this rush.

Artist- Oh Land
Song of the day- Song of a gun

Today's song reminds me of sitting on the floor in my living room in LA with my friend Lisa as I tried to learn keyboard and we would instead play with all the fancy settings my craigslist $50 musical purchase offered and come up with totally awesome ridiculous tunes like guitar set to ocean wave melodies as one of us would bbox and come up with ridiculous lyrics about mustaches and walking to Spaceland. If i wasn't in school I'm pretty sure my day would look a lot like this video. As soon as I get warm weather, free time, and a synthesizer, I might just try it on a rooftop. It also reminds me of how up and down people can be, and how mood swinging I find myself being lately. And how dizzy it can get when one person spins you around, and how even dizzier it gets when you realize it's yourself who won't stop the spinning. If you're going round round round today, this one's for you.



for a less rooftoppy and more dancy version take this for a spin...




Once burned, twice shunned
Too much of your line made me blind.
I’d wait all night
But you left one too many times.

I want to change my orbit
Don’t care what you do now.
I want to live in darkness
Don’t want to be spun around.

You go down, down, down
I fall out of love with you.
Come back round, round, round
You son of a gun.

You go down, down, down.
This time I won’t save you
When you drown, drown, drown
You son of a gun.
You son of a gun.

Birds sing for you,
You can make the blue sky blush
You’ve got them all fooled
But I am burned out on this rush.

I want to change my orbit
Don’t care what you do now.
I want to live in darkness
Don’t want to be spun around.

You go down, down, down
I fall out of love with you.
Come back round, round, round
You son of a gun.

You go low, low, low.
This time I won’t save you
When you go, go, go
You son of a gun.
You son of a gun.

Red sky creepin’
Disappearing
Bye-bye feeling
Heart you’re stealing

You go down, down, down
I fall out of love with you.
Come back round, round, round
You son of a gun.

You go down, down, down.
This time I won’t save you
When you drown, drown, drown
You son of a gun.
You son of a gun.
You son of a gun.

There will be times, we'll try and give it up, Bursting at the seams, no doubt

Artist- Adele
Song of the day- He won't go

There are many ways I like to celebrate having finished a test and one of my favorites is rewarding myself via a drink to cheers with friends, shopping for the least essential items I can find, or perhaps my most favorite, diving into a night a music catch up. Tonight I found two must see concerts I'm currently booking my tix for all the while jamming out to the new Adele first listen on NPR. Having to dig around, I finally found a link to share my favorite song on the album and discovered this upbeat ditty I had crowned the night's "party song" ended up being a song about a recovering heroin addict, go figure. But the story is quite sweet if you care to take investigative look further below, and I loved the song even more after uncovering the meaning of the lyrics. There's something to be said in choosing to do this completely difficult thing that will turn your life upside down, rip everything you know about yourself to shreds so it can clean you back up to where you should be. Now I'm not saying grad school is like drug rehab, but...;)
The gamble in making decisions you really don't want to do, that is a guarantee to change your life and change who you are is always scary. You can't do it on your own, and if your lucky, you have people by your side when you choose to go, as you choose to go, and are waiting for you when your finished getting to where you need to go.
For all those who won't go, don't wanna go, are going, and have gone, this one's for you


Adele - He Won't Go

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Some say I'll be better without you,
But they don't know you like I do,
Or at least the sides I thought I knew,
I can't bear this time,
It drags on as I lose my mind,
Reminded by things I find,
Like notes and clothes you've left behind,
Wake me up, wake me up when all is done,
I won't rise until this battle's won,
My dignity's become undone,

But I won't go,
I can't do it on my own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk,
I won't go,
I can't do it on my own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk,

So petrified, I'm so scared to step into this ride,
What if I lose my heart and fail, declined,
I won't forgive me if I give up trying,
I heard his voice today,
I didn't know a single word he said,
Not one resemblance to the man I met,
Just a vacant broken boy instead,

But I won't go,
I can't do it on my own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk,
I won't go,
I can't do it on my own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
I am willing to take the risk,

There will be times, we'll try and give it up,
Bursting at the seams, no doubt,
We'll almost fall apart, then burn to pieces,
So watch them turn to dust,
But nothing will ever taint us,

I won't go,
I can't do it on my own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk,
I won't go,
I can't do it on my own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
I am willing to take the risk,

Will he, will he still remember me?
Will he still love me even when he's free?
Or will he go back to the place where he will choose the poison over me?
When we spoke yesterday,
He said to hold my breath and sit and wait,
I'll be home so soon, I won't be late,

He won't go,
He can't do it on his own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
He's willing to take the risk,
So I won't go,
He can't do it on his own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk,

'Cause he won't go,
He can't do it on his own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
We're willing to take the risk,
I won't go,
I can't do it on my own,
If this ain't love, then what is?
I'm willing to take the risk.

But somehow I'm still alive inside You took my breath, but I survived I don't know how, but I don't even care

Artist- cast of glee
Song of the day- No Air

Now I usually like to avoid too main streamy of things on my blog and I must say this pop song and this show couldn't be more of both but as I have a test on the pulmonary system tomorrow that for whatever reason I'm still not understanding, this song just continually pops into my head and seems the most appropriate to how I'm feeling. Cuz boy do I wish there was a way you could make me understand hyperventilation, it's apparently blowing my mind. So for whatever reason you may not be breathing...heartbreak, separation from your loved one, metabolic acidosis, or hyperventilation due to test freak out, this one's for you.



If I should die before I wake
It's 'cause you took my breath away
Losing you is like living in a world with no air
Oh

I'm here alone, didn't wanna leave
My heart won't move, it's incomplete
Wish there was a way that I can make you understand

But how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]
Tell me how I'm supposed to breathe with no air
Can't live, can't breathe with no air
It's how I feel whenever you ain't there
It's no air, no air
Got me out here in the water so deep
Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

I walked, I ran, I jumped, I flew
Right off the ground to float to you
There's no gravity to hold me down for real

But somehow I'm still alive inside
You took my breath, but I survived
I don't know how, but I don't even care

So how do you expect me
to live alone with just me
'Cause my world revolves around you
It's so hard for me to breathe

[Chorus]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No more
It's no air, no air

[Chorus x2]

No air, air
No air, air
No air, air
No air, air

Tell me how you gonna be without me
If you ain't here, I just can't breathe
It's no air, no air

Watch out Cupid Stuck me with a sickness Pull your little arrows out Let me live my life

Artist- Metric
Song of the day- Sick muse

I know a lot of things about life. Some might even say I am pretty wise about a few things. Romantic love is not one of them. And in fact I often find myself quite perplexed about something that can completely change who a person is, sometimes make them go crazy, sometimes make them give up everything, sometimes make them more depressed than words can say, make them jealous, confused, stupid, furious, selfish, blind, lose their mind...and yet perhaps it's the thing everyone wants most in the world? fascinating. There is something about it that makes all the crazy worth it. And though i understand very little on the matter, I have been planning my Valentines song for quite some time now. Perhaps not the most romantic, but quite clever. And I might just take clever over romantic, at least for now. So on this special day I hope you enjoy all the crazy in your life.



Watch out Cupid
Stuck me with a sickness
Pull your little arrows out
Let me live my life

You better watch out Cupid
Stuck me with a sickness
Pull your little arrows out
Let me live my life
The one I'd better lead
All the blondes are fantasies

And we looked at them eleven ways
You said, "Look at me". And looked away
And you wrote the song I wanna play
I'll write you harmony in C

Everybody,everybody just wanna fall in love
Everybody,everybody just wanna play the lead

Watch out Cupid
Money is a sick muse
Pull your little arrows out
And let me live my life

She said, "I'm with stupid"
Money is a sick muse
Pull your little arrows out
Let me live my life
The one I'd better lead
All the blondes are fantasies

And we looked at them eleven ways
You said, "Look at me". And looked away
And you wrote the song I wanna play
I'll write you harmony in C

Everybody,everybody just wanna fall in love
Everybody,everybody just wanna play the lead

Might as well fall in

Artist- James Blake
Song of the day- The Wilhelm scream

I discovered today's artist last night whilst lurking on facebook pages of friends who have hip taste and as a music writer, my friend kyle tends to have some of the hippest. I'm not a big fan of electronica-ish tunes but tend to really enjoy them when they're slowed down. Finding Blake was like finding a female Sade mixed with a non lame James Blunt. And though one of the things I don't like about said electronica is overly repetitiousness, I seem to mind it less in today's song. It brings this interesting feeling of falling falling deeper into a darkening ocean that gets zapped with emotion when you least expect it. Almost how my restless attempts at sleep go every night. so for those restless souls out there that don't necessarily know whats going on, all that you know is that it is and you might as well go with it. This one's for you.



I don't know about my dreams
I don't know about my dreamin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm fallin, fallin, fallin, fallin.
Might as well fall in.

I don't know about my love.
I don't know about my lovin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm fallin, fallin, fallin, fallin.
Might as well fall in.

I don't know about my dreams.
I don't know about my dreamin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm fallin, fallin, fallin, fallin.
Fallin.

I don't know about my love.
I don't know about my lovin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm lovin, fallin, lovin, lovin.
Might as well love you.

I don't know about my love.
I don't know about my lovin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm turnin, turnin, turnin, turnin,
Might as well turn in.

I don't know about my dreams.
I don't know about my dreamin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm fallin, fallin, fallin, fallin.
Might as well fall in.

I don't know about my love.
I don't know about my lovin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm fallin, fallin, fallin, fallin.
Might as well fall in.

I don't know about my dreams.
I don't know about my dreamin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm fallin, fallin, fallin, fallin.
Fallin.

I don't know about my love.
I don't know about my lovin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm lovin, lovin, lovin, lovin.
Might as well love you.

I don't know about my dreams.
I don't know about my dreamin anymore.
All that I know is
I'm fallin, fallin, fallin, fallin.
Might as well fall in.