When there's no getting through I won't hold back

Artist- Haim / Calvin Harris
Song of the day- Pray to God

So I know we were all wondering when I would finally be posting a Haim song, since if you know me at all, they are pretty much all I've been talking about this past year. And as they released this new collaboration with Calvin Harris' yesterday, it was like finding pure gold, finally a new Haim song to obsess over with a touch more dancyness thanks to Mr. Harris. And no matter if you are a hard core believer or pure skeptic, we've all hit that point in our lives of extreme stress, panic, fear, loss that we plea to a god that may or may not be there and may or may not help cuz it's our last hope. I tend to hit this feeling monthly during my student loan payments, and as I just hung up the phone pleading for them to not still all my money, well this song of desperation seemed appropriate. And as I fight the need to punch my loan officers in the face, I shall hope you choose the hire road with me today and dance off some desperation with me, Calvin Harris and the super cool Haim sisters.




Oh, I remember when this road was my own
I pray to god, I just don't know anymore
I pray to god, I just don't know anymore
Anymore
I lost the feeling but I try to hold on
I thought the end of a love [?] what made you strong
I pray to god, I just don't know anymore

When there's no getting through
I won't hold back
I will throw down anything in life, I know now
I've been lyin' on the floor
Sleeping on the ground
I will give up everything in life, I know how

[Pre-Chorus]
Cause I can't stop wondering
If I was too late to see the signs
If I could go back with hands up
I'd look up to the sky

[Chorus/Drop]
And give in
I'd give in
I'd give in
I'd give into you
Give into you

[Verse 2]
Oh, when the moon was shining bright before mornin'
I made a deal with the stars to keep holdin'
Shinin' bright to come and bring me back home
The lights in my eyes, they disappeared
The visions in my mind are enough to keep me from fear
I won't let it hold me down
The other way around
I don't want the words to, I can't make a sound

[Pre-Chorus] + [Chorus/Drop]

[Bridge]
Can't hold back
Reachin' out
(Hot, hot, hot) I was livin' in the heat in the moment
Between us
I told you that
(Hot, hot, hot) I was livin' in the heat in the moment

[Chorus/Drop - Variation]
I'd give in
(Hot, hot) I was livin' in the heat in the moment
I'd give in
(Hot, hot) I was livin' in the heat in the moment
I'd give in
(Hot, hot) I was livin' in the heat in the moment
I'd give into to you
Give into you

[Chorus/Drop] (x2)

I don't believe that anybody Feels the way I do about you now

Artist- Ryan Adams
Song of the day- Wonderwall

I'm posting extra early today as I picked up a later shift, however I still set my alarm this morning so I could snag tickets to see Today's artist with Jenny Lewis. Because I have certain priorities in my life, sleep often being very low and Lewis always being at the top. But my new found adoration for today's artist makes this concert possibly one I'm most excited about this year. Still on the top of his most popular songs on Spotify is today's song, for good reason. A) It's a classic B) He was nominated for a Grammy for it C) even Noel Gallagher of Oasis once said of Wonderwall, "I never got my head round this song until I went to [see] Ryan Adams play and he did an amazing cover of it."

We all know how much I love good covers and if I did a list of the greatest covers of all time, this might just top it. It takes a pop song and turns it into a melodic haunting plea. One that can spook anyone in it's path. Tis the season for a little haunting.


Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna give it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead the way are blinding
There are many things that I
Would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never bring it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead the way are blinding
There are many things that I
would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
You're my wonderwall
You're my wonderwall

It's like I got this music In my mind Saying, "It's gonna be alright."

Artist- Taylor Swift
Song of the day- Shake it off

Please allow me to go extreme mainstream for a moment. My BFFS Kelly and Kate have been harassing me via text the last week about the new T.S. album, about how it is everything I will ever want or need and me not having listened to it yet being pure lunacy (I'm paraphrasing more or less). So as I was at Walmart today (losing my indie fair trade street cred every fantastically cheap isle I went down) I decided Swift had earned my hard copy loyalty that is usually reserved for Rilo Kiley and vinyl. Cuz you can say a lot of crap about today's artist but, girl can write a pop, country, and now dance song. And as I blasted my new CD through my car stereo in traffic it was in fact everything I wanted and needed. It reminded me of crazy night dance sessions with my BFFS shaking off school stress, life stress, and just cuz we enjoy it. And even though the entire world has probably overheard this song already, if you're like me there's always a reason to blast a good song and always something we need to shake off. So for my BFFS and for you, let's get a little mainstream today.

I stay out too late
Got nothing in my brain
That's what people say, mmm-mmm
That's what people say, mmm-mmm

I go on too many dates [chuckle]
But I can't make 'em stay
At least that's what people say, mmm-mmm
That's what people say, mmm-mmm

But I keep cruising
Can't stop, won't stop moving
It's like I got this music
In my mind
Saying, "It's gonna be alright."

'Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off

I never miss a beat
I'm lightning on my feet
And that's what they don't see, mmm-mmm
that's what they don't see, mmm-mmm

I'm dancing on my own (dancing on my own)
I make the moves up as I go (moves up as I go)
And that's what they don't know, mmm-mmm
that's what they don't know, mmm-mmm

But I keep cruising
Can't stop, won't stop grooving
It's like I got this music
In my mind
Saying, "It's gonna be alright."

'Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off

Shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off

Hey, hey, hey
Just think while you've been getting down and out about the liars and the dirty, dirty cheats of the world,
You could've been getting down to this sick beat.

My ex-man brought his new girlfriend
She's like "Oh, my god!" but I'm just gonna shake.
And to the fella over there with the hella good hair
Won't you come on over, baby? We can shake, shake, shake

Yeah ohhh

'Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate (haters gonna hate)
I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break (mmmm)
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake (and fake, and fake, and fake)
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off

Shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off

Shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off

Shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off (you've got to),
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off

My love's too big for you my love

Artist- Ingrid Michaelson
Song of the day- Sort of

So I've come pretty down to the wire on today/tonights/you probably won't read this till tomorrow/ blog. But it hasn't been from lack of trying. However what sometimes happens is I fall down a youtube rabbit whole and may or may not have somehow found myself spending hours looking at Emma Stone and Andrew Garfield cute clips. But somehow I was lead back to a pretty much song of the day go to aka anything Ingrid Michaelson writes. Now my love affair didn't really start with Ingrid till this song found me randomly on my ipod shuffle one day in grad school and I've been trying to find a live version of it since then, so see sometimes my rabbit holes help me.

Sure girl angst music is pretty much who I am and today's song were one of those that stopped me dead in my tracks mainly for that added hook at the end of the verse "my love's too big for you my love." And I thought oh that's my problem, or at least at the time. Coming off 5 months of being a missionary and learning to love extreme was hard to reign in that type of feeling 24/7. It was almost like word vomit, once my heart opened just a little I couldn't stop myself, which was pretty awkward for strangers in public places or me and anyone around me who knew I was used to controlling my emotions.

And though it was a hard transition back to the "real world", I look back now and miss it. And a part of me is sad that now I'm stronger and re-remembered how to avoid getting hurt by love. So for all of us who aren't stronger and who love big, keep those arms open, this one's for you.



Baby you've got the sort of hands to rip me apart
And baby you've got the sort of face to start this old heart
But your eyes are warning me this early morning
That my love's too big for you my love

Baby you've got the sort of laugh that waters me
And makes me grow tall and strong and proud and flattens me
I find you stunning, but you are running me down
My love's too big for you my love
My love's too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Baby you've got the sort of eyes that tell me tales
That your sort of mouth just will not say, the truth impales
That you don't need me, but you won't leave me
My love's too big for you my love
My love's too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Tell me what to do to take away the you?

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no.
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Don't you think that it's boring how people talk

Artist- Lorde
Song of the day- Tennis Court

Lorde fucking rocks! I just had to say it. This is by no means a shocking statement, in fact I'm pretty sure I"m the last person to get on the bandwagon that is Lorde's music. I tried to fight it as long as possible. Very stupidly. In my defense I knew of the persona tabloid of her way before her music and at a glance she seemed like a know it all pop star teenager...and I don't mean at a glance cuz I had no idea what she looked like. In my mind she was what I like to call "emineming" other famous people while looking like a Disney channel made star singing that way to overplayed song in my head. But she won grammys and people wouldn't stop talking about her so I listened to her album and kept saying, "hm yeah I don't get it", but could not stop listening to it, over and over still "not getting it" but unable to play other things. Then when I finally googled her I saw today's clip and remember saying aloud to myself, "she fucking rocks."

Now we all know I love weird but it seemed more than that. she was herself, she danced / twitched how she wanted, she looked how she wanted and she sang and enjoyed her musical creation like no one was watching her. Like she didn't care that everyone was watching her, she just cared about her music. And that's pretty cool for anyone, but at 17 it's mind blowing. It was the first time in probably ever I wished I was young again to have someone like that to look up to. And though it may have taken forever to get there, I look up to her anyway. Plus, girl can write a song, cuz I still can't stop listening to her album. So for all of us weirdos and normals trying to feel confident in our own skin, here's a tip from Lorde.



Don't you think that it's boring how people talk
Making smart with their words again, well I'm bored
Because I'm doing this for the thrill of it, killin' it
Never not chasing a million things I want
And I am only as young as the minute is full of it
Getting pumped up on the little bright things I bought
But I know they'll never own me
(Yeah)

Baby be the class clown
I'll be the beauty queen in tears
It's a new art form showing people how little we care (yeah)
We're so happy, even when we're smilin' out of fear
Let's go down to the tennis court, and talk it up like yeah (yeah)

Pretty soon I'll be getting on my first plane
I'll see the veins of my city like they do in space
But my head's filling up fast with the wicked games, up in flames
How can I fuck with the fun again, when I'm known
And my boys trip me up with their heads again, loving them
Everything's cool when we're all in line for the throne
But I know it's not forever
(Yeah)

Baby be the class clown
I'll be the beauty queen in tears
It's a new art form showing people how little we care (yeah)
We're so happy, even when we're smilin' out of fear
Let's go down to the tennis court, and talk it up like yeah (yeah)

It looked alright in the pictures (yeah)

Getting caught's half of the trip though, isn't it?
I fall apart with all my heart (yeah)
And you could watch from your window (yeah)
[Laughs]
And you can watch from your window

Baby be the class clown
I'll be the beauty queen in tears
It's a new art form showing people how little we care (yeah)
We're so happy, even when we're smilin' out of fear
Let's go down to the tennis court, and talk it up like yeah (yeah)

And talk it up like yeah (yeah)
And talk it up like yeah (yeah)
Let's go down to the tennis court, and talk it up like yeah (yeah)
And talk it up like yeah (yeah)
And talk it up like yeah (yeah)
Let's go down to the tennis court, and talk it up like yeah
(Yeah)

it's times like these you learn to live again it's times like these you give and give again

Artist- Foo Fighters
Song of the day- Times like these

The Foo Fighters are in that category of band for me that is epic and awesome and I know the songs from the radio and I know they are amazing but seem so far up on that rock platform and at a distance to truly embrace. This is a ridiculous assumption I realized once I saw them in concert in the pouring rain as I wore a poncho and umbrella, chilled to the bone, knowing that they would cancel their set at lollapalooza like several other bands had to due to safety. Not only did I see probably the greatest rock show I will every see in my lifetime, but saw the most generous of musicians, soaked inside and out giving everything they had with the biggest genuine smiles on their faces. They may have been rock gods but it wasn't about basking in the glory but experiencing this amazing moment with tons of people with music.

As I watched their new docu-series "Sonic Highways" on HBO, I was reminded of their generosity that Chicago evening, and how they were outpouring again not with just their own music but the music of America, of a history that this musical nerd is dying to hear. So for those times in our own history in those shared generous moments, this one's for you.



I am a one way motorway
I'm the road that drives away
then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I'm a white light blinding bright
burning off and on

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I'm a brand new sky
to hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
do I stay or run away
and leave it all behind?

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

All through the night They have forgotten what by day they lack

Artist- Cyndi Lauper
Song of the day- All through the Night

One would probably assume my most fav Cyndi Lauper song of all time is no pun intended, time after time. However when she hits the chorus of this song every time I hear it I think, nope this is the one, this is why Cyndi Lauper is a genius. And it wasn't till probably a decade ago when (like I've said before) I heard a cover of Idina Menzel singing today's song on a secret bootleg tape I found at the height of my Wicked obsession that I really understood what a powerhouse song this is, cuz that's what Menzel does to songs (also someone re find that bootleg for me and please put that cover on youtube immediately). But I digress.

This song is the only kind of heightened cheesy emotion you can have in the middle of the night when you can say things like "asleep in your eyes is enough" and I won't want to vomit and reference random cats outside and I think it's poetry. It's the 80s, it's keyboard magic at it's finest, it's neon hair exuding everything it should. It's pretty much exactly what we all need in our lives, so you're welcome.

All through the night
I'll be awake and I'll be with you
All through the night
This precious time when time is new
Oh, all through the night today
Knowing that we feel the same without saying

We have no past we won't reach back
Keep with me forward all through the night
And once we start the meter clicks
And it goes running all through the night
Until it ends there is no end

All through the night
stray cat is crying so stray cat sings back
All through the night
They have forgotten what by day they lack
Oh under those white street lamps
There is a little chance they may see

We have no past we won't reach back
Keep with me forward all through the night
And once we start the meter clicks
And it goes running all through the night
Until it ends there is no end



Oh the sleep in your eyes is enough
Let me be there let me stay there awhile

We have no past we won't reach back
Keep with me forward all through the night
And once we start the meter clicks
And it goes running all through the night
Until it ends there is no end
Keep with me forward all through the night
And once we start the meter clicks
And it goes running all through the night
Until it ends there is no end