I don't believe that anybody Feels the way I do about you now

Artist- Ryan Adams
Song of the day- Wonderwall

I'm posting extra early today as I picked up a later shift, however I still set my alarm this morning so I could snag tickets to see Today's artist with Jenny Lewis. Because I have certain priorities in my life, sleep often being very low and Lewis always being at the top. But my new found adoration for today's artist makes this concert possibly one I'm most excited about this year. Still on the top of his most popular songs on Spotify is today's song, for good reason. A) It's a classic B) He was nominated for a Grammy for it C) even Noel Gallagher of Oasis once said of Wonderwall, "I never got my head round this song until I went to [see] Ryan Adams play and he did an amazing cover of it."

We all know how much I love good covers and if I did a list of the greatest covers of all time, this might just top it. It takes a pop song and turns it into a melodic haunting plea. One that can spook anyone in it's path. Tis the season for a little haunting.


Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna give it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead the way are blinding
There are many things that I
Would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never bring it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead the way are blinding
There are many things that I
would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
You're my wonderwall
You're my wonderwall

All my life Been shaking Wanting something

Artist- Ryan Adams
Song of the day- Gimme Something good

Alas I have a confession, I have always known of Ryan Adams genius and gathered the musical pebbles from is prolific tree as I was exposed to it. But his library is so vast and has always been overwhelming to try conquer though I know I'd benefit from it...similarly to the time I tried to watch the entire Battlestar Galactica series and made it only to season 3...the amount of greatness was just too much to behold.

But I've eaten up his new album in my surprising rocker boy stage I'm going through currently. Sure this has a lot to do with how he excellently produced Jenny Lewis' new album and peeked my musical interest once again. And also I'm pretty sure we have the same hair cut right now.

But I've been spending my last days visiting my parents in bed hoping my sinuses don't explode, I keep singing today's song in my medicated congested haze begging for some relief so I can have a good time with my family instead of continually apologizing and canceling their plans to spoil me (cuz yeah that's what my parents due). So if you're hoping and singing a similar anthem, this ones for you...and if you're not just sing it on my behalf cuz I"m losing my voice.

also Elvira is in the video, so halloweenie!


I can't talk
My mind is so blank
So going for a walk
I've got nothing left to say

I can't see
The darkness on the rise
I'll be waiting here
Until the under tide

All my life
Been shaking
Wanting something
Holding everything I have like it was broken
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good

I was playing dead
Doesn't make a sound
Holding my breath
Going underground

So I can't talk
I got nothing to say
It's like there's no tomorrow
Barely yesterday

All my life
Been shaking
Wanting something
Holding everything I have like it was broken
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Oh no

All my life
Been shaking
Wanting something
Holding everybody back
Round and round
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Oh no

photo by @gypsygingerjew

And the lights will draw you in And the dark will take you down

Artist- Ryan Adams
Song of the day- Lucky Now

Attempting to transition my body to work night shifts seemed like an easy process with my history of insomnia. Though I'm realizing that my past late nights have not prepared me at all for being productive during a time when the rest of the population is sleeping. Ever since I was young I found the late nights and wee hours of the morning to be the most magical time of day. I'm not quite sure why, though I suppose having a forced bedtime at 8yrs old and watching movies with young people going on grand adventures while I slept probably had something to do with it. But that feeling always stuck with me, I loved waking up at 3am to go on family road trips, I love having deep conversations with people when you should be in bed because for some reason people become less guarded, I love leaving a concert as the city calms down for the night and it feels like anything is possible in it...however these times of grandeur are far between and I spend most of my restless nights awake in bed in the dark over contemplating every aspect of myself and my life till my heart is so heavy and my head so full I beg for sleep to come or something to distract me.

And what I've realized in the past few days is that distraction does not include any form of productivity. I can't seem to study or work at anything that involves part of my brain not busy with self indulgence. I apparently only know how to lay awake in bed all night long and not put my insomnia to actual use. So hopefully that can change by tomorrow night and maybe I have found my grandiose life of night living with the graveyard shift....more likely I'm assuming that won't be the case, but for all you nocturnal worker bees, this one's for you.



I don’t remember were we wild and young
All that faded into memory
I feel like somebody I don’t know
Are we really who we used to be
Am I really who I was

The lights will draw you in
And the dark will bring you down
And the night will break your heart
But only if you’re lucky now

Waiting outside while you find your keys
Like bags of trash in the blackening snow
City of neon and toes that freeze
We’ve got nothing and nowhere to go
We’ve got nothing and nowhere

And the lights will draw you in
And the dark will take you down
The night will break your heart
But only if you’re lucky now

And if the lights draw you in
And the dark can take you down
And love can mend your heart
But only if you’re lucky now

I don’t remember were we wild and young
All that’s faded into memory
I feel like somebody I don't know
Are we really who we used to be
Am I really who I was