And the lights will draw you in And the dark will take you down

Artist- Ryan Adams
Song of the day- Lucky Now

Attempting to transition my body to work night shifts seemed like an easy process with my history of insomnia. Though I'm realizing that my past late nights have not prepared me at all for being productive during a time when the rest of the population is sleeping. Ever since I was young I found the late nights and wee hours of the morning to be the most magical time of day. I'm not quite sure why, though I suppose having a forced bedtime at 8yrs old and watching movies with young people going on grand adventures while I slept probably had something to do with it. But that feeling always stuck with me, I loved waking up at 3am to go on family road trips, I love having deep conversations with people when you should be in bed because for some reason people become less guarded, I love leaving a concert as the city calms down for the night and it feels like anything is possible in it...however these times of grandeur are far between and I spend most of my restless nights awake in bed in the dark over contemplating every aspect of myself and my life till my heart is so heavy and my head so full I beg for sleep to come or something to distract me.

And what I've realized in the past few days is that distraction does not include any form of productivity. I can't seem to study or work at anything that involves part of my brain not busy with self indulgence. I apparently only know how to lay awake in bed all night long and not put my insomnia to actual use. So hopefully that can change by tomorrow night and maybe I have found my grandiose life of night living with the graveyard shift....more likely I'm assuming that won't be the case, but for all you nocturnal worker bees, this one's for you.



I don’t remember were we wild and young
All that faded into memory
I feel like somebody I don’t know
Are we really who we used to be
Am I really who I was

The lights will draw you in
And the dark will bring you down
And the night will break your heart
But only if you’re lucky now

Waiting outside while you find your keys
Like bags of trash in the blackening snow
City of neon and toes that freeze
We’ve got nothing and nowhere to go
We’ve got nothing and nowhere

And the lights will draw you in
And the dark will take you down
The night will break your heart
But only if you’re lucky now

And if the lights draw you in
And the dark can take you down
And love can mend your heart
But only if you’re lucky now

I don’t remember were we wild and young
All that’s faded into memory
I feel like somebody I don't know
Are we really who we used to be
Am I really who I was