all I can do is make other’s bleed a prideful ego fire I’m eager to feed

Artist- The Lonely Forest
Song of the day- Woe is me...I am Ruined

So I have a new band crush. After they played this as their first song I knew I had fallen in love, and not just because the lead singer looks like and unfamous Jake Gyllenhaal. They have the vocals and cleaver writing of a young Death Cab but a newness and innocence of a band starting out and from a small island off of Washington state. Plus self deprecating rock? My favorite. And as I go to my last pediatric clinical tomorrow I can't help but think of how this song kinda explains my growing relationship with kids this past six months, from singing to toddlers as they whack my guitar and cry, my attempt at assessing little Hondurans as they scream at the site of me, me playing with a chronically ill kid for hours or attempting to give them a bath as they refuse to sit still or shriek like I"m torturing them, or being one of the first people to ever hold a brand new living person in the world...sometimes it's horrifying, sometimes they look at me and cry as I do things that seem to hurt them or make them bleed all in the name of making them feel better which they just can't understand, but sometimes it's the greatest thing I know I'll ever do.



he gripped my hand like a vice because
I stole her, a fox from a wolf
it seems to me we’re one in the same man
we both have fallen short
time and time again

and...
all I can do is make other’s bleed
a prideful ego fire I’m eager to feed
and they say I’m a good guy
and they say I’m a good guy

can you meet me in that place
when I’m too ashamed to show my face?

and...
all I can do is make others bleed
a prideful ego fire I’m eager to feed
and they say I’m a good guy
and they say I’m a good guy