When there's no getting through I won't hold back

Artist- Haim / Calvin Harris
Song of the day- Pray to God

So I know we were all wondering when I would finally be posting a Haim song, since if you know me at all, they are pretty much all I've been talking about this past year. And as they released this new collaboration with Calvin Harris' yesterday, it was like finding pure gold, finally a new Haim song to obsess over with a touch more dancyness thanks to Mr. Harris. And no matter if you are a hard core believer or pure skeptic, we've all hit that point in our lives of extreme stress, panic, fear, loss that we plea to a god that may or may not be there and may or may not help cuz it's our last hope. I tend to hit this feeling monthly during my student loan payments, and as I just hung up the phone pleading for them to not still all my money, well this song of desperation seemed appropriate. And as I fight the need to punch my loan officers in the face, I shall hope you choose the hire road with me today and dance off some desperation with me, Calvin Harris and the super cool Haim sisters.




Oh, I remember when this road was my own
I pray to god, I just don't know anymore
I pray to god, I just don't know anymore
Anymore
I lost the feeling but I try to hold on
I thought the end of a love [?] what made you strong
I pray to god, I just don't know anymore

When there's no getting through
I won't hold back
I will throw down anything in life, I know now
I've been lyin' on the floor
Sleeping on the ground
I will give up everything in life, I know how

[Pre-Chorus]
Cause I can't stop wondering
If I was too late to see the signs
If I could go back with hands up
I'd look up to the sky

[Chorus/Drop]
And give in
I'd give in
I'd give in
I'd give into you
Give into you

[Verse 2]
Oh, when the moon was shining bright before mornin'
I made a deal with the stars to keep holdin'
Shinin' bright to come and bring me back home
The lights in my eyes, they disappeared
The visions in my mind are enough to keep me from fear
I won't let it hold me down
The other way around
I don't want the words to, I can't make a sound

[Pre-Chorus] + [Chorus/Drop]

[Bridge]
Can't hold back
Reachin' out
(Hot, hot, hot) I was livin' in the heat in the moment
Between us
I told you that
(Hot, hot, hot) I was livin' in the heat in the moment

[Chorus/Drop - Variation]
I'd give in
(Hot, hot) I was livin' in the heat in the moment
I'd give in
(Hot, hot) I was livin' in the heat in the moment
I'd give in
(Hot, hot) I was livin' in the heat in the moment
I'd give into to you
Give into you

[Chorus/Drop] (x2)

I don't believe that anybody Feels the way I do about you now

Artist- Ryan Adams
Song of the day- Wonderwall

I'm posting extra early today as I picked up a later shift, however I still set my alarm this morning so I could snag tickets to see Today's artist with Jenny Lewis. Because I have certain priorities in my life, sleep often being very low and Lewis always being at the top. But my new found adoration for today's artist makes this concert possibly one I'm most excited about this year. Still on the top of his most popular songs on Spotify is today's song, for good reason. A) It's a classic B) He was nominated for a Grammy for it C) even Noel Gallagher of Oasis once said of Wonderwall, "I never got my head round this song until I went to [see] Ryan Adams play and he did an amazing cover of it."

We all know how much I love good covers and if I did a list of the greatest covers of all time, this might just top it. It takes a pop song and turns it into a melodic haunting plea. One that can spook anyone in it's path. Tis the season for a little haunting.


Today is gonna be the day
That they're gonna give it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do about you now

Backbeat the word is on the street
That the fire in your heart is out
I'm sure you've heard it all before
But you never really had a doubt
I don't believe that anybody feels
The way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead the way are blinding
There are many things that I
Would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall

Today was gonna be the day
But they'll never bring it back to you
By now you should've somehow
Realized what you gotta do
I don't believe that anybody
Feels the way I do
About you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding
And all the lights that lead the way are blinding
There are many things that I
would like to say to you
But I don't know how

I said maybe
You're gonna be the one that saves me
And after all
You're my wonderwall
You're my wonderwall
You're my wonderwall

It's like I got this music In my mind Saying, "It's gonna be alright."

Artist- Taylor Swift
Song of the day- Shake it off

Please allow me to go extreme mainstream for a moment. My BFFS Kelly and Kate have been harassing me via text the last week about the new T.S. album, about how it is everything I will ever want or need and me not having listened to it yet being pure lunacy (I'm paraphrasing more or less). So as I was at Walmart today (losing my indie fair trade street cred every fantastically cheap isle I went down) I decided Swift had earned my hard copy loyalty that is usually reserved for Rilo Kiley and vinyl. Cuz you can say a lot of crap about today's artist but, girl can write a pop, country, and now dance song. And as I blasted my new CD through my car stereo in traffic it was in fact everything I wanted and needed. It reminded me of crazy night dance sessions with my BFFS shaking off school stress, life stress, and just cuz we enjoy it. And even though the entire world has probably overheard this song already, if you're like me there's always a reason to blast a good song and always something we need to shake off. So for my BFFS and for you, let's get a little mainstream today.

I stay out too late
Got nothing in my brain
That's what people say, mmm-mmm
That's what people say, mmm-mmm

I go on too many dates [chuckle]
But I can't make 'em stay
At least that's what people say, mmm-mmm
That's what people say, mmm-mmm

But I keep cruising
Can't stop, won't stop moving
It's like I got this music
In my mind
Saying, "It's gonna be alright."

'Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off

I never miss a beat
I'm lightning on my feet
And that's what they don't see, mmm-mmm
that's what they don't see, mmm-mmm

I'm dancing on my own (dancing on my own)
I make the moves up as I go (moves up as I go)
And that's what they don't know, mmm-mmm
that's what they don't know, mmm-mmm

But I keep cruising
Can't stop, won't stop grooving
It's like I got this music
In my mind
Saying, "It's gonna be alright."

'Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off

Shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off

Hey, hey, hey
Just think while you've been getting down and out about the liars and the dirty, dirty cheats of the world,
You could've been getting down to this sick beat.

My ex-man brought his new girlfriend
She's like "Oh, my god!" but I'm just gonna shake.
And to the fella over there with the hella good hair
Won't you come on over, baby? We can shake, shake, shake

Yeah ohhh

'Cause the players gonna play, play, play, play, play
And the haters gonna hate, hate, hate, hate, hate (haters gonna hate)
I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off
Heart-breakers gonna break, break, break, break, break (mmmm)
And the fakers gonna fake, fake, fake, fake, fake (and fake, and fake, and fake)
Baby, I'm just gonna shake, shake, shake, shake, shake
I shake it off, I shake it off

Shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off

Shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off

Shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off (you've got to),
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off,
I, I, I shake it off, I shake it off

My love's too big for you my love

Artist- Ingrid Michaelson
Song of the day- Sort of

So I've come pretty down to the wire on today/tonights/you probably won't read this till tomorrow/ blog. But it hasn't been from lack of trying. However what sometimes happens is I fall down a youtube rabbit whole and may or may not have somehow found myself spending hours looking at Emma Stone and Andrew Garfield cute clips. But somehow I was lead back to a pretty much song of the day go to aka anything Ingrid Michaelson writes. Now my love affair didn't really start with Ingrid till this song found me randomly on my ipod shuffle one day in grad school and I've been trying to find a live version of it since then, so see sometimes my rabbit holes help me.

Sure girl angst music is pretty much who I am and today's song were one of those that stopped me dead in my tracks mainly for that added hook at the end of the verse "my love's too big for you my love." And I thought oh that's my problem, or at least at the time. Coming off 5 months of being a missionary and learning to love extreme was hard to reign in that type of feeling 24/7. It was almost like word vomit, once my heart opened just a little I couldn't stop myself, which was pretty awkward for strangers in public places or me and anyone around me who knew I was used to controlling my emotions.

And though it was a hard transition back to the "real world", I look back now and miss it. And a part of me is sad that now I'm stronger and re-remembered how to avoid getting hurt by love. So for all of us who aren't stronger and who love big, keep those arms open, this one's for you.



Baby you've got the sort of hands to rip me apart
And baby you've got the sort of face to start this old heart
But your eyes are warning me this early morning
That my love's too big for you my love

Baby you've got the sort of laugh that waters me
And makes me grow tall and strong and proud and flattens me
I find you stunning, but you are running me down
My love's too big for you my love
My love's too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Baby you've got the sort of eyes that tell me tales
That your sort of mouth just will not say, the truth impales
That you don't need me, but you won't leave me
My love's too big for you my love
My love's too big for you my love

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Tell me what to do to take away the you?

And if I was stronger then I would tell you no.
And if I was stronger then I will leave this show
And if I was stronger then I would up and go
But here I am and here we go again

Don't you think that it's boring how people talk

Artist- Lorde
Song of the day- Tennis Court

Lorde fucking rocks! I just had to say it. This is by no means a shocking statement, in fact I'm pretty sure I"m the last person to get on the bandwagon that is Lorde's music. I tried to fight it as long as possible. Very stupidly. In my defense I knew of the persona tabloid of her way before her music and at a glance she seemed like a know it all pop star teenager...and I don't mean at a glance cuz I had no idea what she looked like. In my mind she was what I like to call "emineming" other famous people while looking like a Disney channel made star singing that way to overplayed song in my head. But she won grammys and people wouldn't stop talking about her so I listened to her album and kept saying, "hm yeah I don't get it", but could not stop listening to it, over and over still "not getting it" but unable to play other things. Then when I finally googled her I saw today's clip and remember saying aloud to myself, "she fucking rocks."

Now we all know I love weird but it seemed more than that. she was herself, she danced / twitched how she wanted, she looked how she wanted and she sang and enjoyed her musical creation like no one was watching her. Like she didn't care that everyone was watching her, she just cared about her music. And that's pretty cool for anyone, but at 17 it's mind blowing. It was the first time in probably ever I wished I was young again to have someone like that to look up to. And though it may have taken forever to get there, I look up to her anyway. Plus, girl can write a song, cuz I still can't stop listening to her album. So for all of us weirdos and normals trying to feel confident in our own skin, here's a tip from Lorde.



Don't you think that it's boring how people talk
Making smart with their words again, well I'm bored
Because I'm doing this for the thrill of it, killin' it
Never not chasing a million things I want
And I am only as young as the minute is full of it
Getting pumped up on the little bright things I bought
But I know they'll never own me
(Yeah)

Baby be the class clown
I'll be the beauty queen in tears
It's a new art form showing people how little we care (yeah)
We're so happy, even when we're smilin' out of fear
Let's go down to the tennis court, and talk it up like yeah (yeah)

Pretty soon I'll be getting on my first plane
I'll see the veins of my city like they do in space
But my head's filling up fast with the wicked games, up in flames
How can I fuck with the fun again, when I'm known
And my boys trip me up with their heads again, loving them
Everything's cool when we're all in line for the throne
But I know it's not forever
(Yeah)

Baby be the class clown
I'll be the beauty queen in tears
It's a new art form showing people how little we care (yeah)
We're so happy, even when we're smilin' out of fear
Let's go down to the tennis court, and talk it up like yeah (yeah)

It looked alright in the pictures (yeah)

Getting caught's half of the trip though, isn't it?
I fall apart with all my heart (yeah)
And you could watch from your window (yeah)
[Laughs]
And you can watch from your window

Baby be the class clown
I'll be the beauty queen in tears
It's a new art form showing people how little we care (yeah)
We're so happy, even when we're smilin' out of fear
Let's go down to the tennis court, and talk it up like yeah (yeah)

And talk it up like yeah (yeah)
And talk it up like yeah (yeah)
Let's go down to the tennis court, and talk it up like yeah (yeah)
And talk it up like yeah (yeah)
And talk it up like yeah (yeah)
Let's go down to the tennis court, and talk it up like yeah
(Yeah)

it's times like these you learn to live again it's times like these you give and give again

Artist- Foo Fighters
Song of the day- Times like these

The Foo Fighters are in that category of band for me that is epic and awesome and I know the songs from the radio and I know they are amazing but seem so far up on that rock platform and at a distance to truly embrace. This is a ridiculous assumption I realized once I saw them in concert in the pouring rain as I wore a poncho and umbrella, chilled to the bone, knowing that they would cancel their set at lollapalooza like several other bands had to due to safety. Not only did I see probably the greatest rock show I will every see in my lifetime, but saw the most generous of musicians, soaked inside and out giving everything they had with the biggest genuine smiles on their faces. They may have been rock gods but it wasn't about basking in the glory but experiencing this amazing moment with tons of people with music.

As I watched their new docu-series "Sonic Highways" on HBO, I was reminded of their generosity that Chicago evening, and how they were outpouring again not with just their own music but the music of America, of a history that this musical nerd is dying to hear. So for those times in our own history in those shared generous moments, this one's for you.



I am a one way motorway
I'm the road that drives away
then follows you back home
I am a street light shining
I'm a white light blinding bright
burning off and on

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

I am a new day rising
I'm a brand new sky
to hang the stars upon tonight
I am a little divided
do I stay or run away
and leave it all behind?

it's times like these you learn to live again
it's times like these you give and give again
it's times like these you learn to love again
it's times like these time and time again

All through the night They have forgotten what by day they lack

Artist- Cyndi Lauper
Song of the day- All through the Night

One would probably assume my most fav Cyndi Lauper song of all time is no pun intended, time after time. However when she hits the chorus of this song every time I hear it I think, nope this is the one, this is why Cyndi Lauper is a genius. And it wasn't till probably a decade ago when (like I've said before) I heard a cover of Idina Menzel singing today's song on a secret bootleg tape I found at the height of my Wicked obsession that I really understood what a powerhouse song this is, cuz that's what Menzel does to songs (also someone re find that bootleg for me and please put that cover on youtube immediately). But I digress.

This song is the only kind of heightened cheesy emotion you can have in the middle of the night when you can say things like "asleep in your eyes is enough" and I won't want to vomit and reference random cats outside and I think it's poetry. It's the 80s, it's keyboard magic at it's finest, it's neon hair exuding everything it should. It's pretty much exactly what we all need in our lives, so you're welcome.

All through the night
I'll be awake and I'll be with you
All through the night
This precious time when time is new
Oh, all through the night today
Knowing that we feel the same without saying

We have no past we won't reach back
Keep with me forward all through the night
And once we start the meter clicks
And it goes running all through the night
Until it ends there is no end

All through the night
stray cat is crying so stray cat sings back
All through the night
They have forgotten what by day they lack
Oh under those white street lamps
There is a little chance they may see

We have no past we won't reach back
Keep with me forward all through the night
And once we start the meter clicks
And it goes running all through the night
Until it ends there is no end



Oh the sleep in your eyes is enough
Let me be there let me stay there awhile

We have no past we won't reach back
Keep with me forward all through the night
And once we start the meter clicks
And it goes running all through the night
Until it ends there is no end
Keep with me forward all through the night
And once we start the meter clicks
And it goes running all through the night
Until it ends there is no end

Everybody wants me to be What they want me

Artist- The Commodores
Song of the day- Easy

I've been having issues off and on lately with bad migraines and today I thought it would be funny to have a song with head or headache theme. I instead found a bizarre study some random people did on music and headaches and how listening to pop music helped 60% of the people in the study. What were one of the top songs you might ask? Perhaps it's the shimmery suits, the references to Sundays or repetitive chorus of convincing oneself that you're easy, either way today's song should aid in taking away our pain.

It reminds me of a strange compliment a dude gave me once about being simple. Sure I'm pretty chill and easy to get along with but in all actuality I'm like every other woman in the world, annoyingly complicated to the point where my sister is probably right and my migraines are stress related. In my head pounding state I passed the time today taking one of those many buzzfeed esque quizzes that basically said I'll take all my feelings and conflicts and worries and ball them up inside so much that it would cause me health problems, thanks for being so right buzzfeed. Either way to those of you who are easy or pretending to be, who've got pain or just like Afros and glitter bellbottoms, this one's for you.



Know it sounds funny
But I just can't stand the pain
Girl I'm leaving you tomorrow
Seems to me girl
You know I've done all I can
You see I begged, stole
And I borrowed

Ooh, that's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning

Why in the world
Would anyboddy put chains on me?
I've paid my dues to make it
Everbody wants me to be
What they want me to be
I'm not happy when I try to fake it!
No!

Ooh,that's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning

I wanna be high, so high
I wanna be free to know
The things I do are right
I wanna be free
Just me, babe!

That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
That's why I'm easy
I'm easy like sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like sunday morning
Because I'm easy
Easy like sunday morning

So take me down to your dance floor And I won't mind the people when they stare

Artist- Gram Parsons, Emmylou Harris
Song of the day- Song for you

The first time I ever heard this song was as a cover in a beautiful cathedral looking bar around midnight and the musician / love of my life, Johnathan Rice,  said he would buy anyone a drink who could name whose song it was. From the first chorus I knew I was in love with this haunting poetic tune, full of longing and quiet beauty that should only ever be sung at midnight in cathedral looking bars. I knew I wasn't just entranced by my Johnathan Rice adoration and wouldn't be able to musically rest till I found whose song it was. Luckily everything about today's song is memorable and when I heard Gram Parson and Emmylou Harris finally through my speakers it was like finding a lost gem that only the older and wiser before me had known. I wanted to wrap myself up in the song and call it my own, but perhaps no one answered Mr. Rice that night because the song really belonged to all of us. Or more accurately, we all need more gem of Gram Parson and Emmylou Harris in our lives. Either way, if you are looking for a song today, this one's for you.




Oh, my land is like a wild goose
Wanders all around everywhere
Trembles and it shakes till every tree is loose
It rolls the meadows and it rolls the nails
So take me down to your dance floor
And I won't mind the people when they stare
Paint a different color on your front door
And tomorrow we will still be there
Jesus built a ship to sing a song to
It sails the rivers and it sails the tide
Some of my friends don't know who they belong to
Some can't get a single thing to work inside
So take me down to your dance floor
And I won't mind the people when they stare
Paint a different color on your front door
And tomorrow we will still be there

I loved you every day and now I'm leaving
And I can see the sorrow in your eyes
I hope you know a lot more than you're believing
Just so the sun don't hurt you when you cry
Oh, take me down to your dance floor
I won't mind the people when they stare
Paint a different color on your front door
And tomorrow we may still be there
And tomorrow we may still be there

It's just a spark But it's enough to keep me going

Artist- Paramore
Song of the day- Last Hope

 Today I was in a room full of terrified nurses as the reality of what being on the front lines of a new threat really meant. So much unknowns as the fight has to continue and we learn new ways in how to protect ourselves and how non existent the margin of error can be is, I'm not gonna lie, pretty scary. In the end there is only so much we can do, so much control we have on an issue that is so big it spans the world. And there it is, that word "control" that I constantly have to go back to giving up. That so much about my beliefs, and the word faith is giving up your grip on things you don't really have power over anyway and relying on the hope God knows what He's doing and all this shit in the world can't overpower what He can do with a life or how He can use us to change lives knowing the risks, no matter the risks. So for all those that need a little hope today or are like me and need to let go a little bit, today's song is for you.



I don't even know myself at all
I thought I would be happy by now
The more I try to push it
I realize – gotta let go of control

Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
So let it happen

It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing

Every night I try my best to dream
Tomorrow makes it better
Then I wake up to the cold reality
And not a thing is changed

But it will happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen

It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing

It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing

And the salt in my wounds isn't burning anymore than it used to
It's not that I don't feel the pain, it's just I'm not afraid of hurting anymore
And the blood in these veins isn't pumping any less than it ever has
And that's the hope I have, the only thing I know that's keeping me alive

Alive

Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen

Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen

It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
(So if I let go of control now, I can be strong)
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing

It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
(So if I keep my eyes closed, with the blind hope)
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing

Ahhh
Ahhh
Ahhh
Ahhh

Ohhh
Ohhh

This time I've got no hesitation and I'll be movin' on to where I belong

Artist- Nickel Creek
Song of the day- Destination

I tend to find it difficult to live in the moment, always looking for my next destination, having 100% believed when I was told nothing is permanent. And as I've been setting up my new place I've been singing today's song as my empowerment march. Sure I'm scared about choosing this destination, but resolved in moving forward by staying still for a while. After all, there ain't no time for hesitation one nothing is permanent. If you're making a destination, scream this chorus out of tune with me while some real musicians push us forward.



You don't owe me
one more minute of your wasted time
you act like it's all fine

but all the years I gave you
thinking you knew that you wanted me
I wanted to believe

I've gotta make a destination
find where I'll be loved
This time I've got no hesitation
and I'll be movin' on
(to where I belong)
and I'll be movin' on

I'm tired of trying
to describe what you will never see
how that we could be

gave up and lost her
now you're looking for a little grace
well look at my face

I've gotta make a destination
find where I'll be loved
This time I've got no hesitation
and I'll be movin' on
(to where I belong)
and I'll be movin' on

empty corner gotta keep movin'
taking hits while you've been missing
night after night after I hear you

say we're solid
but I know we're looking through the cracks
in our little patch

it isn't hard to leave
knowing that I'll be getting life on track
never looking back

I've gotta make a destination
find where I'll be loved
This time I've got no hesitation
and I'll be movin' on
(to where I belong)
and I'll be movin' on
(find where I'll be loved)
I'm already gone

And the lambs are on the run Searching for meaning

Artist- Adam Levine
Song of the day- Lost Stars

Now I have to say I've never really been a fan of Mr. Levine, but have never shied away from the fact that this kid got pipes. But today's song has little to do with the artist and more to do with the art it came from. Now I just might have been the only person to see the movie "Begin Again" this summer,  is quite a shame. The follow up ode to loving music in film "Once", might not have all the talent and passion of the first film, but director John Carney still has a gift for capturing the power music has on our lives and how it shapes and changes us. I am in love with music and few things have ever really been able to capture that true love like Carney is able to.

Today's song also sought the help of former New Radicals musician Gregg Alexander who left fame at the height of his "You get what you give" stardom because he loved the art of music and not the commercialism. But Alexander was so touched by the story of "Begin Again" he wrote today's song for the movie. It can stand alone as a great song as Alexander stated in an interview, "The goal was for each lyric and sentiment to be a story and a thought unto itself, but also to the greater mystery of life, which is that we are all just coming and going in this life. We are just a lost star. We are a spark on the horizon." And in the context of the story and Levine's other worldly voice it comes alive.

So today's song is a plea to go see "Begin Again" and discuss it with me. But also for all the sparks on the horizon, this one's for you.

Please, don't see
Just a boy caught up in dreams
And fantasies

Please, see me
Reaching out for someone
I can't see

Take my hand
Let's see where we wake up tomorrow
Best laid plans
Sometimes are just a one night stand

I'll be damned
Cupid's demanding back it's arrow
So let's get drunk on our tears

And God, tell us the reason
Youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season
And the lambs are on the run

Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars
Trying to light up the dark

Who are we?
Just a speck of dust
Within the galaxy?

Woe, is me
If we're not careful
Turns into reality

But don't you dare
Let our best memories bring you sorrow
Yesterday I saw a lion kiss a deer
Turn the page
Maybe we'll find a brand new ending
Where we're dancing in our tears

And God, tell us the reason
Youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season
And the lambs are on the run

We're searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars
Trying to light up the dark

I thought I saw you out there crying
I thought I heard you call my name
I thought I heard you out there crying
But just the same

And God, give us the reason
Youth is wasted on the young
It's hunting season
And this lamb is on the run

Searching for meaning
But are we all lost stars
Trying to light up the dark

I thought I saw you out there crying
I thought I heard you call my name
I thought I heard you out there crying

But are we all lost stars
Trying to light up the dark

But are we all lost stars
Trying to light up the dark

Baby, can't you see that your point's already made Can't you let it go, let's listen to the music play

Artist- Catey Shaw
Song of the day- Human Contact

The fear of getting sick from another person is pretty much on the forefront of I'd venture to say everyone's mind right now. And being on the front lines of that fear daily I felt that I needed to remember why human contact can be what heals too and not something I would always need a hazmat suit and bleach to avoid. So here's to shutting our pretty mouth and forgetting what the fights about, at least for a song of the day.



You were talking loud
I was waiting for a noise complaint
You just gave the look
I must have said something you hate
Now you want to argue
You want to tell me everything that's wrong
But I'm so distracted
'Cause they're playing my favorite song

Ooh ooh, doesn't matter
Ooh ooh, we're together
Ooh ooh, doesn't matter, no

If you just shut that pretty mouth
We'll forget what the fight's about
Come on, just let me turn you out
With human contact
If you just shut that pretty mouth
Baby we, we could burn it down
Come on, let's turn this sh-t around
With human contact

Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah

Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah

Baby, can't you see that your point's already made
Can't you let it go, let's listen to the music play
Right now I've forgot what we were even mad about
Let's quit sitting here, let's work this matter out

Ooh ooh, doesn't matter
Ooh ooh, we're together
Ooh ooh, doesn't matter, no

If you just shut that pretty mouth
We'll forget what the fight's about
Come on, just let me turn you out
With human contact
If you just shut that pretty mouth
Baby we, we could burn it down
Come on, let's turn this sh-t around
With human contact

Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah

Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah

If you just shut that pretty mouth
We'll forget what the fight's about
Come on, let me turn you out, oh
If you just shut that pretty mouth
Baby we, we could burn it down
Come on

If you just shut that pretty mouth
We'll forget what the fight's about
Come on, just let me turn you out
With human contact
If you just shut that pretty mouth
Baby we, we could burn it down
Come on, let's turn this sh-t around
With human contact

Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah

Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah
Ba ba ba ba ba by ah

And how long will we last Before we go insane?

Artist- Rilo Kiley
Song of the day- We'll never sleep (God knows we'll try)

So I promise Jenny Lewis doesn't just write songs about not sleeping, but once agreed to pick up a 3am shift this song popped in my head. There's a beautiful somberness to it's anger about being awake at a ridiculous hour, and the guitar solo its one of my all time favorites, and for a girl who hates guitar solos, that's saying a lot. So as I attempt to fall asleep with the sun still up, enjoy some early Rilo Kiley on me.



Stealing away into the night
Won't get you any higher
We'll never sleep
God knows we'll try
The hospital is closed

And how long will it last
Before we go insane?

We circle your uncle's parking lot
Just to see how many
Times that we can before we get caught
You guessed on twenty

And how long will you stare
Before i look away?
I don't wanna go

Begged them to stay they're on holiday
Just close the door
You can watch final four
And just fall away

Sailing away just isn't right
Just because you're angry
If you go
I think i might
Lose it all together
And how long will we last
Before we go insane?
I don't wanna

You turn away, what could I say Not the first betrayed by a kiss

Artist- Arcade Fire
 Song of the day- We exist

I was drop dead in love with this video from the first time I saw it and it made me pretty much adore Andrew Garfield from that day on. But as today is national coming out day this song seems pretty much perfect. So for all those in, out, straight, gay, weird, scared, strong, proud, angry, in love or alone. We exist. This one's for you.



Walking around head full of sound
Acting like we don't exist
Walk in a room stare out through you
Talking like we don't exist

But we exist

Daddy it's true, I'm different from you
But tell me why they treat me like this?
You turn away, what could I say
Not the first betrayed by a kiss

Maybe it's true
They're staring at you
When you walk in a room

Turn on us fine
Stare if you like
Or just let us through
Just let us through

Down on your knees
Begging us please
Praying that we don't exist

Daddy it's fine, I'm used to them now
But tell me why they treat me like this?
Is it because we do it like this?

Maybe it's true
They're staring at you
When you walk in a room

Turn on us fine
Stare if you like
Or just let us through
Just let us through

Let them stare
Let them stare
That's all right with you

But lose myself
If it turn away from you

Daddy told him to wait
Mother, I'm so scared
But will you watch us drown?
You know that they will

You know that we're young
You know that we're confused
But will you watch us drown?
What are you so afraid to lose?

Down on their knees
Begging us please
Praying that we don't exist

We exist

Who am I to say I want you back? When you were never mine to give away.

Artist- JJamz
Song of the day- Heartbeat

I have always adored Halloween season, mainly for the crisp fall air and pumpkin everything. I am pretty much the biggest chicken around and as much as I want to enjoy haunted houses and horror movies, the harsh reality of my phobias usually take over. I do enjoy watching horror trailers though, all the entertainment and only some of the scare! So I too appreciate today's song for capturing the retro campy girl in distress horror that sticks so strongly to the genre it's laughable. But also behind all the camp is the secret treasure that is JJamz pop sound that hopefully will not stay underrated for long. For all you horror fans out there, this one's for you.



Who am I to say I want you back?
When you were never mine to give away.
I was waiting for a long, long time for you to feel the same.
Who are you to look at me like that?
Is there something more you need to say?
I haven't loved you in a long, long time,
so why do I feel this way?

Can you hear my heartbeat?
Please don't stand so close to me.
Can you hear my heartbeat still beating strong?

Maybe I'm ashamed to want you back.
Maybe I'm afraid you'll never stay.
Thought I hated you a long, long time.
There was my mistake.

I just can't pretend that nothing's changed.
Can you comprehend just what to say?
If you break my heart a second time,
I might never be the same.

Can you hear my heartbeat?
Please don't stand so close to me.
Can you hear my heartbeat still beating strong?

I haven't loved you in a long, long time.
Thought I hated you a long, long time.
If you break my heart one more time,
I won't ever be the same.

Can you hear my heartbeat?
Please don't stand so close to me.
Can you feel my heartbeat still beating strong?

Can you hear my heartbeat?
When you stand so close to me.
Can you hear my heartbeat still beating strong?

Still beating strong.
Still beating strong.

With a head held high and a sharp tongue I could fool almost anyone

Artist- First Aid Kit
Song of the day- Master Pretender

I've always been quite a fan of these Swedish sisters' and full of jealousy and anger that my sister and I did not spend our entire childhood learning earthy harps and Gram Parson covers so we could wear folksy sheek attire and harmonize like a couple of angels. Alas that ship has sailed, but First Aid Kit seemed to have surpassed not just sounding like the folk music they love, but truly coming into a music melody all their own on this third album. Though I will probably gab more about this eclectic sound in the near future, I enjoyed today's stripped down song version off the "stay gold" album. It not only has that self deprecating storytelling I can't get enough of, it's also reflective of where one has been, how they have changed and how they haven't really changed at all. The constant oxymoron that is growing and staying who you are is often confusing, but much more bearable under soft lamp lit lights and a bit of sisterly wisdom.



Never thought that I was weak
Always thought I could get hurt pretty bad
Still get up on my own two feet

I always believed that I was free
That I had some sense of integrity
That would rise above whatever tried to change me

But honey, now I won't wait
For something to bring me round and smile
'Cause that only sticks for a while
Then I'm back again

Oh, I'm a master pretender

I always knew that I was young
But with a head held high and a sharp tongue
I could fool almost anyone

I never expected to be struck
By the fatal hands of fortune or by sheer bad luck

Now we won't change
And memories just rearrange
And fall into place
So I'm back again

Oh, I'm a master pretender

All the streets of New York City
Sure look pretty from way up here
And I was headed home, just felt more alone
The further I'd go

I always thought that you'd be here
But shit gets fucked up and people just disappear

So honey, now, don't be mad
Time has told me it can't be that bad
And if it is, well, I'll be goddamn
But I'll stick around

I'll be your master defender
Yeah, I'll stick around
I'll be your master defender

Please disregard my endless hope It just paved the way for the end of our road

Artist- Sondre Lerche
Song of the day- Legends

So the other night I was watching a movie and this quote stuck with me. "What is greater than a hero?...a Legend"...and sure the movie was Robo Cop and was more evilly implying why they should murder a man faced robot, but the idea of what a legend might mean stuck with me. My hero complex had to know. Cuz there's a reason there's the phrase every day heroes and only certain things are legendary...unless you are Barney Stinson. There's something more about a legend when heroes can be unsung. So today's song seemed to capture my current revelation in longing for the stuff of legends and only left to to dance out ones frustration. And there's no better adorable Swede to dance with than Mr. Lerche.



Please disregard my naked face
I just realized it takes two to lay
Can we dish it out in daylight
Can we stare ourselves down
Can we manouver honesty when it comes swinging back around
Oh o-oh
Now we'll never know what legends we could be
Just me and you and you and me
Oh o-oh, now we'll never know what legends we were ment to be
Oh-oh-oh-oh
Please disregard my endless hope
It just paved the way for the end of our road
I sometimes called you, bluff in secret,
You sometimes hassled with my nerves
Can you imagine anybody else so close to you, it hurts
Oh oh-o-oh
Now we'll never know what legends we could be just me and you and you and me,
Oh oh-o-oh
Now we'll never know what legends we were ment to be
Ooh oh oh
Please disregard
As I have done
Our sivilized boats
Is not fooling them
Oh o-oh oh
Now we'll never know what legends we could be, just me and you and you and me
Oh o-oh oh
Now we'll never know what legends we could be, just dumb as you and dumb as me
Oh oh o-oh
Now we'll never know what legends we could be, oh oh-o oh oh
Oh oh o-oh
Now we'll never know what legends we were ment to be
Oh oh o-oh
The legends we set out to be
Oh oh oh oh o-oh

I want your high love and emotion endlessly

Artist- Drake
Song of the day- Hold on, We're Going home


So I'll admit I'm probably the 1% of main stream population that couldn't get over Drake and his Degrassi Canada TV past. I have difficulty taking the rapper seriously as I tend to just picture Jimmy Brooks in a wheelchair trying to start a band with his high school sweetheart...but goodness do I love today's song. It's moody, subtle, Michael Jackson-esque slow jam was often my highway driving celebratory anthem as I left night shift after midnight.

Today rekindled my love as my shuffle found the song just as I was taking off back home, gripping my airplane seat, crazily chewing gum, hoping my sinus infected ears would not burst. Sure it was dramatic but I was on a lot of meds and also, it is the Degrassi way. So for all of you holding on till you go home, this one's for you.



I got my eyes on you
You're everything that I see
I want your high love and emotion endlessly
I can't get over you
You left your mark on me
I want your high love and emotion endlessly

Cause you're a good girl and you know it
You act so different around me
Cause you're a good girl and you know it
I know exactly who you could be
Just hold on we're going home
Just hold on we're going home
It's hard to do these things alone
Just hold on we're going home (home)

I got my eyes on you
You're everything that I see
I want your high love and emotion endlessly
I can't get over you
You left your mark on me
I want your high love and emotion endlessly

Cause you're a good girl and you know it (oh yeah)
You act so different around me
Cause you're a good girl and you know it
I know exactly who you could be

So just hold on we're going home (going home)
Just hold on we're going home (going home)
It's hard to do these things alone (things alone)
Just hold on we're going home (going home, going home)

You're the girl
You're the one
Gave you everything I love
I think there's something, baby
I think there's something, baby

You're the girl
You're the one
Gave you everything I love
I think there's something, baby
I think there's something, baby

Cause you're a good girl and you know it
You act so different around me
Cause you're a good girl and you know it
I know exactly who you could be

Oh just hold on we're going home (going home)
Just hold on we're going home (going home)
It's hard to do these things alone (things alone)
Just hold on we're going home (going home, going home)
Hold on

All my life Been shaking Wanting something

Artist- Ryan Adams
Song of the day- Gimme Something good

Alas I have a confession, I have always known of Ryan Adams genius and gathered the musical pebbles from is prolific tree as I was exposed to it. But his library is so vast and has always been overwhelming to try conquer though I know I'd benefit from it...similarly to the time I tried to watch the entire Battlestar Galactica series and made it only to season 3...the amount of greatness was just too much to behold.

But I've eaten up his new album in my surprising rocker boy stage I'm going through currently. Sure this has a lot to do with how he excellently produced Jenny Lewis' new album and peeked my musical interest once again. And also I'm pretty sure we have the same hair cut right now.

But I've been spending my last days visiting my parents in bed hoping my sinuses don't explode, I keep singing today's song in my medicated congested haze begging for some relief so I can have a good time with my family instead of continually apologizing and canceling their plans to spoil me (cuz yeah that's what my parents due). So if you're hoping and singing a similar anthem, this ones for you...and if you're not just sing it on my behalf cuz I"m losing my voice.

also Elvira is in the video, so halloweenie!


I can't talk
My mind is so blank
So going for a walk
I've got nothing left to say

I can't see
The darkness on the rise
I'll be waiting here
Until the under tide

All my life
Been shaking
Wanting something
Holding everything I have like it was broken
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good

I was playing dead
Doesn't make a sound
Holding my breath
Going underground

So I can't talk
I got nothing to say
It's like there's no tomorrow
Barely yesterday

All my life
Been shaking
Wanting something
Holding everything I have like it was broken
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Oh no

All my life
Been shaking
Wanting something
Holding everybody back
Round and round
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Gimme something good
Oh no

photo by @gypsygingerjew

I dream in all your clouds of glory, it's true

Artist- Jessie Ware
Song of the day- Tough Love

Since it's Friday I'm going to give you something extra special to tide you over the weekend. You're welcome in advance if you already haven't been introduced to the gem that is Jessie Ware. What I am already confident will be my new favorite album before even being released, today's title of said album blew me away at first listen and I still can't get enough of it or pretty much any new song she releases. It's like the electronic second coming of Sade that makes one long for heartbreak so you can lip sync with true soulful emotion, cuz lord knows I can't hit those falsettos.  So if you you're in the middle of tough love or longing for it, this gem is for you.



It's already that time that you hope my mind is true
And I've been thinking of what to say or not to do
So you wanna be a man about it, do you?
And have you figured out all you wanted, have you?

[Pre-Chorus:]
When your heart becomes a million different pieces
That's when you won't be able to recognize this feeling

[Chorus 1:]
That's called tough love
That's called tough love
That's called tough love
That's called tough love

In the middle of the night all I think about is you
I dream in all your clouds of glory, it's true
So you wanna be a man about it, do you have to?
And have you figured out all you wanted, have you?

[Pre-Chorus]

[Chorus 2:]
That's called tough love (tough love)
That's called tough love (tough love)
That's called tough love (tough love)
That's called tough love (tough love)

You have me crying out, crying out for more
You have me crying out, crying out for more
You have me crying out, crying out for more
You have me crying out, crying out for more

[Chorus 2]

Why did they have to go and do us like that Why did they have to go and run from a dream far away

Artist- Bleachers
Song of the day- Wild Heart

I'll admit I knew who Bleachers was by famous girlfriends and Autumn de Wilde photo shoots before ever hearing their music. Yet none of this should overshadow the excellent 80s synth throw back that is their debut album. Though I can't escape their first single on almost every new show and movie trailer commercial, I've come to appreciate today's song because it has one of my favorite qualities which is, dancy synth anthem. There's a reason they keep being used in a finale of an episodes, it has that empowering beat that makes you want to break into a run or suddenly declare your true feelings or do something brave and ridiculous. And finding a way to capture that in a song is true heroism. So to all those going after that wild heart, this one's for you.



They closed the parkway late last night
And as I sat with the echoes of lies that I told
I felt young never change my crooked heart
So put your shotgun back in the glove
I'm only waiting another year for the dream far away
To come home to be brave

Well everything has changed
and now it's only you that matters
I will find anyway to your wild heart

They boarded up the windows and the doors to my house
No one will ever read the letters of the lies that I told
From the years I was changed my crooked hearts
Why did they have to go and do us like that
Why did they have to go and run from a dream far away
We'll be there was that grave?

To think everything must die for anyone to matter
Got to find anyway to your wild heart
I will find anyway to your wild heart

I will find anyway
Now everything has changed and I can't tell what matters
I will find anyway to your wild heart

Your wild heart [x8]

She'll turn her music on you You won't have to think twice

Artist- Kim Carnes
Song of the day- Bette Davis Eyes


Before I knew who Bette Davis was, I knew this song. And singing along as a 6 year old I knew this lady with eyes had all the characteristics of a cool ass woman. When I finally saw "All about Eve"(Stop what you are doing now and watch it), I realized this song had not lied to me at all, Bette Davis was in fact all of those things and a cool ass woman. Watching old Hitchcock classics with my dad I realized other beauties of her day did indeed have style and grace and reasons for being classic beauties and eventual princesses, but totally unrelatable to me and my not so classic beauty or royal future on my horizon. But wit I could grasp, wit seemed appealing, wit seemed empowering, wit I could work with. So to all those with Bette Davis Eyes, this one's for you.

"To fulfill a dream, to be allowed to sweat over lonely labor, to be given a chance to create, is the meat and potatoes of life. The money is the gravy." - Bette Davis

...also this video is ridiculous, enjoy!

Her hair is Harlowe gold
Her lips sweet surprise
Her hands are never cold
She's got Bette Davis eyes
She'll turn her music on you

You won't have to think twice

She's pure as New York snow
She got Bette Davis eyes

And she'll tease you
She'll unease you
All the better just to please you
She's precocious and she knows just
What it takes to make a pro blush
She got Greta Garbo stand off sighs
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She'll let you take her home
It whets her appetite
She'll lay you on her throne
She got Bette Davis eyes
She'll take a tumble on you
Roll you like you were dice
Until you come out blue
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She'll expose you, when she snows you
Off your feet with the crumbs she throws you
She's ferocious and she knows just
What it takes to make a pro blush
All the boys think she's a spy
She's got Bette Davis eyes

And she'll tease you
She'll unease you
All the better just to please ya
She's precocious, and she knows just
What it takes to make a pro blush
All the boys think she's a spy
She's got Bette Davis eyes

She'll tease you
She'll unease you
Just to please ya
She's got Bette Davis eyes
She'll expose you, when she snows you
She knows ya
She's got Bette Davis eyes