I am nothing without pretend I am nothing without pretend I know my faults Can't live with them

Artist- Wye Oak
Song of the day- Civilian

Another thing I love about music festivals are the mixes they give of artist playing that long after the fest is over you can go to the mix and realize all the more musicians you should have seen. One of them I found was Wye Oak which instantly caught me with their haunting dark country sound and kept me with their honest lyrics. I feel like most of life we are just pretending to have it all together when in reality none of us do. But it's like an unspoken packed we have all agreed to that we would keep pretending we're fine all the time for fear the world might spin into crazy town if we all just freaked out. And maybe that would happen, maybe it's what makes us civilized creatures for holding it together, but it also leaves this space inside of us where we store all our hurt, all our freak outs that we don't know what to do with. Maybe they burst out in an angry fight, a beautiful song, a friend, a therapist, a priest, the night air or into crazy town. But they're a harsh beautiful interesting part of ourselves that I am forever intrigued by and love when I find it in a song, which luckily is often. So for all your interesting harsh parts, this one's for you.



I am nothing without pretend
I know my faults
Can't live with them
I am nothing without a man
I know my thoughts
But I can't hide them

I still keep my baby teeth
In the bedside table with my jewelry
You still sleep in the bed with me,
My jewelry, and my baby teeth

I don't need another friend
When most of them
I can barely keep up with
I'm perfectly able to hold my own hand,
but I still can't kiss my own neck

I wanted to give you everything
but I still stand in awe of superficial things
I wanted to love you like my mother's mother's mothers did
Civilian