You want to see my spirit dissipate You want my body to disintegrate But I refuse to just wither away I won't succumb to this decay

Artist - Akenya
Song of the day - Decay

I’m gonna really attempt to avoid venting about being a nurse during this time of pandemic right now and will perhaps let today’s song express my frustrations. I mean feel free to keep commending healthcare workers for being on the frontlines and taking care of the sick and exposed, but also maybe write or complain or advocate for us to whoever is not letting us be tested, not making sure we have supplies to protect us and our patients, or just Amazon us some mask, gowns and bleach wipes. I mean I get it, I want to save celebrities and hot people too, but there might not be anyone to take of them if the frontline is gone.

So maybe I lied about ranting. But today’s song is about Akenya’s own frustration concerning her shitty lyme disease diagnosis. And used the song to raise money for its cause. So for those of you feeling beat down by whatever might be going on, I mean take your pick right now, this one’s for you. And just like Akenya refuses to whither away, may our spirits never dissipate.

Verse 1: You keep my feet high above my head
And my spine is tucked between my knees
I thought I would only know decay when I was dead
You make wilting something of ease

Pre-Chorus: I never wanted to be twisted up like this
I think my body might get sick enough and quit
I never wanted to be twisted up amidst all the prey that you claim for the taking

Chorus: You wanna defeat me
You’re trying to play me
(Got me) acting like I’m crazy
But frankly
I don’t want to be around this
I don’t want to stand for your bullshit
My energy isn’t feeling you, you’re not healing me you just
Wanna defeat me
You’re trying to play me
(Got me) acting like I’m crazy
But frankly
I don’t want to be around this
I don’t want to stand for you
My enemy, I keep fighting but you keep killing me, you just

Verse 2: Turn my insides outside one by one
Dim the bright side of my attitude
Shatter any matter of the woman I’d become
Take my breaking bones as gratitude

Pre-Chorus 2: I never thought I would be twisted up like this
But I know my spirit hasn’t given up so I persist
And resist the urge to sit and reminisce
Of the days when you lay unawakened

(Chorus)

Bridge: You want to see my spirit dissipate
You want my body to disintegrate
But I refuse to just wither away
I won't succumb to this decay

(Pre-Chorus, Chorus, and Outro simultaneously)
Outro: You want to make
Me decay, but I won't, I won't
And you want to break
Down my faith, but you won't, you won't!

Last line of final chorus: My enemy, I'll keep fighting 'til you stop killing me