you can't explain away the way I feel

Artist- Mark Foster, A-Trak, Kimbra
Song of the day- Warrior

If I had a current anthem it would be today's song that has been on repeat non-stop since Converse released the free track the beginning of this month. I had already pre-planned my obsession with the song, for once you mix my favorite shoes, foster the people and kimbra, I'm pretty much guaranteed to like it. But I cherished it even more after reading Kimbra's reasoning behind her lyrics, "There's a war-cry at the heart of this song that I feel strongly about.... Will we raise our men and women to be strong in heart & 'to cry for the ones they love'? Or just automated to be strong in body and mind, but lacking in empathy? Hold onto your light.... follow it to the end... and fight the man! Preferably with a roundhouse kick to the face in a Luchadore mask and spandex leotard!!!"

Being a spirit first kind of person I embrace the war cry mentality and for weeks had decided this was my 'fight the man' mantra. Till today while I was running to the song and realized I WAS 'the man'. Having a difficult past few months of adjusting to a new job of facing people's emergent / traumatic events on a daily basis, the death of a dear old friend, and surprise intense surgery for my mother, I realized my immediate go to reaction was to push it down. As is usually how I react to dealing with any type of feelings. This false belief that in order to be strong you have to turn off your emotions will catch up with you in the end and or leave you crying in a grocery store at 10:30 at night while you are searching for whole clove spices....not that that is a specific example from my own life or anything.

The whole point of today's song is about embracing the emotional, spiritual side of ourselves and how it is the true source of our strength. Our hearts, our empathy, our light inside of us is magical. So here's to our softer side that makes us warriors, this mantra is for you.



My hands are tired
But my eyes are open
This modern denial

Has me broken

Nothing mystical

No hullabaloo
Just chemicals

And noone looking down on you

What am i thinking? (If you're so sure it's rational)
While the worlds shrinking? (but that don't make it logical)
What am i thinking? (If you say i'm just an animal)
I feel like I'm sinking (you can't explain away the way I feel!)

You're just pushing me down, pushing me down, pushing me down
(They tell you 'Trust your head, be like men' but never feel like you're good enough)
You're just crushing me down, crushing me down, crushing me down
(They wana take our light, make us fight, but never cry for the ones you love!)

(I'll be your warrior, warrior)

You're taking over
And I'm feeling small
When I was a child

I knew it all

Nothing magical

No hologram behind the door
Just a chain reaction

But I know i'm made for more!

What am i thinking? (If you're so sure it's rational)
While the worlds shrinking? (but that don't make it logical)
What am i thinking? (If you say i'm just an animal)
I feel like I'm sinking (you can't explain away the way I feel!)

And you're just pushing me down, pushing me down, pushing me down
(They tell you, 'Trust your head, be like men' but never feel like you're good enough)
You keep crushing me down, crushing me down, crushing me down
(They wanna take our light, make us fight, but never cry for the ones you love!)

And you're just pushing me down, pushing me down, pushing me down
(You wana change the world, but your girls will be seen and not be heard!)
You just crushing me down, crushing me down, crushing me down
(They wana take our light, make us fight, but never cry for the ones you love!)