I want to hold the hand inside you I want to take a breath that's true

Artist- Mazzy Star
Song of the day- Fade into you

I'm sick again which calls for another round of "favorite songs to listen to whilst sick in bed". Today's song is one of the too many reasons I thought I had a cooler older sister growing up. Also it being her ringtone for about a decade it's hard not to separate her and the song. Besides it being a fantastic tune, and one I love listening to for it's depressing moodiness with a fragile twang, I also probably like the song while I'm sick cuz I connect it with my sister. My mom always told me growing up that I didn't know who my mother was and would always cry to my sister. I do in fact remember an instance when I was around 7 years old of forcing my sister to hold my hand while a doctor stitched up my stomach and another time being bit by a neighbors dog and wailing bloody murder on my parents bathroom counter with a cut open lip till my sister arrived. Sure this is nice, but what is really amazing is that my sister is the biggest wimp when it comes to blood and needles and all things medically gross. I've seen her clearly disgusted face as she reluctantly held my hand and was never silent about the "ewwwwwws" at the sight of me. Sure a part of me might have secretly enjoyed grossing out my sister, but for all of you with siblings out there you know the strange power they have over you for better or worse sometimes. They can make you feel better when nobody else can, they can make you do almost anything for them even if you don't want to, they can piss you off more then anyone when they still your unborn son's name for their cat, and they can perhaps even make being sick less awful. So for all the siblings out there, this one's for you.



I want to hold the hand inside you
I want to take a breath that's true
I look to you and I see nothing
I look to you to see the truth
You live your life
You go in shadows
You'll come apart and you'll go black
Some kind of night into your darkness
Colors your eyes with what's not there.

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you
I think it's strange you never knew

A stranger's light comes on slowly
A stranger's heart without a home
You put your hands into your head
And then it's smiles cover your heart

Fade into you
Strange you never knew
Fade into you

I think it's strange you never knew
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I think it's strange you never knew