It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time

Artist- Michelle Branch
Song of the day- Goodbye to you

Today as I was frantically rambling off my mental school stress to my sister this song came to mind. It is a bit on the dramatic side but made me think back to wanting to go back to chicago to start nursing school, knowing that I could be free to lose my mind from school stressing, knowing my sis would be there to keep me stable. I clearly know I'm not dramatically losing everything I thought I knew, but perhaps I'm losing a bit of that comfortable stability my crazed mind has grown accustomed to. Look out world, here comes the crazy.



Of all the things I believe in
I just want to get it over with
tears from behind my eyes
but I do not cry
Counting the days that past me by

I've been searching deep down in my soul
Words that I'm hearing are starting to get old
Looks like I'm starting all over again
The last three years were just pretend and I say

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I love
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

I still get lost in your eyes
And it seems like I can't live a day without you
Closing my eyes till you chase my thoughts away
To a place where I am blinded by the light but it's not right

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Ohhh yeah
It hurts to want everything & nothing at the same time
I want whats yours and I want whats mine
I want you but I'm not giving in this time

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything I thought I knew
You were the one I loved
The one thing that I tried to hold on to

We the stars fall and I lie awake
Your my shooting star