Oh you leave me empty every time

Artist- Bryan Wood
Song of the day- Empty Homily

Now perhaps it is because he is a dear friend of mine, but I am pretty positive I would be blown away and in love with his music regardless if I knew Mr. Wood or not. Every song he writes seems to have the super power of expressing so much of what is going on inside a person that is often difficult to articulate, having that special ability to grab a raw emotion and make you not only look right at it, but even experiences it first hand for the minutes the song plays. Today's song has been playing in my head lately and I wasn't sure why till I listened to it more in depth. It's about all these things we try to fill the wholes in our hearts with, that ache inside that leaves you yearning more from life, from yourself that you never feel complete. We fill it with all kinds of things good and bad, people, jobs, exercise, food, alcohol, religion, entertainment, everything we can find to fill that void and they even work for a while but the emptiness in the end it's still there lurking even if we don't realize it, it comes back eventually. And I think this song was playing in my head cuz I realized the 'it' came back. And maybe it sounds like i have my own issues, and well I do, but I'm pretty sure songs like this feel universal for a reason. I personally think we were created with this whole for a reason, it's what some call the god-shaped whole, there's a reason nothing else fits it. And I forget that sometimes or at least am determined try more tangible, easier, more instantly gratifying ways to fit it, but I haven't found one yet. Perhaps you disagree but even so, if you are feeling a little empty and can't seem to find the right fit, this one's for you.



Delila, beautiful like the devil seducing me
Or this idol that I"m bowing to
Oh how subtly you ruin me
oh I'm a sucker for your lie
oh You leave me empty every time

Darling, beautiful clinging tightly to your rosary
like my idol or your memory
I let religion get the best of me
oh I'm a sucker for your lie
Oh You leave me empty every time

You were my golden statue
You were my bright red sun
Blinded from all that was true
You were my only one

Oh I'm a sucker for your lie
Oh you leave me empty every time

Oh I'm a sucker for your lie
Oh you leave me empty every time

It could all be so simple But you'd rather make it hard Loving you is like a battle And we both end up with scars

Artist- Holly Miranda
Song of the day- Ex-factor

When I was in high school I knew I was of musical sound mind, not so much for my blasting of brintey spears while eating ice cream with my best friend and cruising down the 82nd st strip (though it was some of the best times and I can't help it if Spears is a musical icon) but for my love of this Lauren Hill album. That's right, I knew what I thought hip-hop was, or had no clue, but I listened to "The mis-education of lauren hill" non stop to the point of studying Hill's lyrics and clever worded observations but also how she delivered her words with passion for someone who hurts her so bad, and yet not as a victim but with total bad-assness. So when I stumbled on this white girl cover of one of my fav Hill songs I had a sentimental appreciation for it and then instant hatred for her fantastic soulful vocals. Alas, if you are in need of some 90s flashbacks, empowerment, or a musical rant that encompasses your emotion, this one's for you...
one day I do dream of bursting into song out of anger "care for me care for me said you'd be there for me..." it is my masochistic dream.



It could all be so simple
But you'd rather make it hard
Loving you is like a battle
And we both end up with scars
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Is this just a silly game
That forces you to act this way
Forces you to scream my name
Then pretend that you can't stay
Tell me, who I have to be
To get some reciprocity
No one loves you more than me
And no one ever will

Hook:
No matter how I think we grow
You always seem to let me know
It ain't workin'
It ain't workin'
And when I try to walk away
You'd hurt yourself to make me stay
This is crazy
This is crazy

I keep letting you back in
How can I explain myself
As painful as this thing has been
I just can't be with no one else
See I know what we got to do
You let go and I'll let go too
'Cause no one's hurt me more than you
And no one ever will

Repeat Hook

Care for me, care for me
I know you care for me

There for me, there for me
Said you'd be there for me

Cry for me, cry for me
You said you'd die for me

Give to me, give to me
Why won't you live for me
(Repeat)

Let's go dancin' in the light We know where the music's playin' Let's go out and feel the night.

Artist- Neil Young
Song of the day- Harvest moon

Neil Young is part of the library of legends that I know exist, know I must love, will gasp and say things like "You don't know who Neil Young is?" but in truth I am simply a Neil poser and no nothing, if anyone would like to educate me. I know I'm supposed to like several songs of his but today's song is the one that catches my ear. It's the haunting, almost of key, almost heavenly vocals, over a landscape of music that makes me feel like I'm watching a sunset with my grandpa on the front porch in the woods...or what I assume that would feel like. It also has this observation, separation from reality feel. Like if I could soundtrack the moments of my life in situations where I feel like an outsider just observing whats going on and unable to connect to it, I'm pretty sure this is the song that plays. And if I'm being really honest, when I rediscovered this song today I realized what cemented my love for the song and at the same time sucked all the coolness away was it being in the way too summer blockbustery eat. pray. love. Damn you Ryan Murphy for being able to place music so well in movies and tv, your Glee powers will have to run out someday, but till then, hears to the tunes that catch our ears no matter how classic rock, mutton chops filled, or Juliet Roberts movies they might be in.



Come a little bit closer
Hear what I have to say
Just like children sleepin'
We could dream this night away.

But there's a full moon risin'
Let's go dancin' in the light
We know where the music's playin'
Let's go out and feel the night.

Because I'm still in love with you
I want to see you dance again
Because I'm still in love with you
On this harvest moon.

When we were strangers
I watched you from afar
When we were lovers
I loved you with all my heart.

But now it's gettin' late
And the moon is climbin' high
I want to celebrate
See it shinin' in your eye.

Because I'm still in love with you
I want to see you dance again
Because I'm still in love with you
On this harvest moon.

I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite Albums back as your lying there drifting off to sleep...

Artist- Ben Gibbard / Postal Service
Song of the day- Brand New Colony

I seem to be currently having a serious problem of not being able to stop buying concert tickets. I made an entire iCal calendar in red devoted to the concerts I plan / want to see and well as the spring and summer months progress each month seems to be bleeding concerts. And after scoring the very hard to get / sold out in 60 seconds Death Cab for Cutie tickets, it seemed appropriate to post a song from the multi talented, multi band lead singer. This was never my favorite Postal Service song, but after hearing Gibbard play an acoustic concert I had a new appreciation for not only his songwriting in general but the longing he makes come alive especially in today's song. And I get that this is a fantastic love song about one person being everything for the one they love. but it also reminds me of this verse in 1Cor 9:22 of becoming everything to everyone to show God's love. To be able to take them away from the pain of this world to a "brand new colony" where everything will change. And one of the greatest things a preacher said to me once is that, that would be how I'd show people love. It was inspiring because as a people pleaser for decades I learned how to do it, but to really love people that way not for your own gain but totally selfless and not losing your own self in the process well it is a balance I struggle with daily and not sure if I ever get it quite right. Probably not. But every once in a while there are glimpses of that kind of love and when that happens I know it's something otherworldly. So here's to that otherworldly kind of love if you have it and if you're looking for it, this one's for you.



I'll be the grapes fermented,
Bottled and served with the table set in my finest suit
Like a perfect gentlemen
I'll be the fire escape that's bolted to the ancient brick
Where you will sit and contemplate your day

I'll be the waterwings that save you if you start drowning
In an open tab when your judgement's on the brink
I'll be the phonograph that plays your favorite
Albums back as your lying there drifting off to sleep...
I'll be the platform shoes and undo what heredity's done to you...
You won't have to strain to look into my eyes
I'll be your winter coat buttoned and zippedstraight to the throat
With the collar up so you won't catch a cold

I want to take you far from the cynics int his town
And kiss you on the mouth
We'll cut out bodies free from the tethers of this scene,
Start a brand new colony
Where everything will change,
We'll give ourselves new names (identities erased)
The sun will hear the grounds
Under our bare feet in this brand new colony
Everything will change, oOo oOo...

I'm putting your patience to the test I'm putting your body on the line, for less

Artist- The Strokes
Song of the day Machu Picchu

Alas it's back to the grindstone and goodbye vacation. I think what encompasses my good time during break, my reluctance to get back to school, and just the right synth beats and rock'n'roll to get me through yet another 10 weeks of school is today's song from the new Strokes album. It has the right amount of Stroke rock with a shake your rump beat that just might get me through. Here's to another batch of mountains, take some advice from the Stokes and look for the ones you can climb!



I'm putting your patience to the test
I'm putting your body on the line, for less
And didn't you know there was a choice?
It's never yours but someone else's voice

Slippin' your body through the street
I'm sending your girlfriends to the night, for cheat
Wearing a jacket, play the meat
Sending a letter … so sweet

And now you've heard that
Weathers turn to grey
Life in the shade
A violent cloud
And that's on USA
... on the rise
... in the sky
I'm just trying' to find
A mountain I can climb

I'm putting your patience to the test
I'm putting your body on the line, for less
And didn't you know there was a choice?
And it's never yours and someone else's voice

And now you've seen that
… grey
Life in the shade
A violent cloud
And that's on US
Porn/Born on the rise
Circles in the skies
Find More lyrics at www.sweetslyrics.com
I'm just tryin' to find
A mountain I can climb

(Tell us
Can ... tell us
… is so jealous
… is so silent
… is always silent

Can … tell us
… is so jealous
… is so silent
… is always silent

Can … tell us
… is so jealous)

I didn't wanna love you, baby
I didn't wanna love you
And everybody saw me
And even if they knew me
Can anyone even love me?

Aww, right

Why are you waitin'?


Life turns to dust
And when it turns to rust
That's it … true
…

And why do you look surprised?
Ever since I'm in the skies
I'm just tryin' to find
A space for you and I

If you give it a minute it's wrong If you give it a minute it's gone

Artist- Lykke Li
Song of the day- Breaking it up

I have been on vacation from school and with sporadic Internet and late nights which also meant a vaca from the song of the day blog. But I had to return early for a special occasion of my dear friend Mo's day of birth. To the person who seems to be as and sometimes even more excited about my blog than I am and who actually at times remembers and listens to most excellent bands I suggest such as today's. So Mo here is to you on the day you were born, someone who could sing better and express with more excitement about how glad I am that you are born. So I hope you break it up and get your dance on today!



If you're going abroad I can't help you
If you're crossing the street I might be there

If you give it a minute it's wrong
If you give it a minute it's gone
If we're just waiting a second too long
Darling I'll leave and you won't come along

So give me the reason to stay
Give me the reason to wait
You know I don't look to get caught
'Cause darling we're here but my true love is not

Breaking it up, before it's on
Breaking it up, it's already gone
Breaking it up, I didn't mean to fraud
Breaking it up

I might be there
If you're going abroad I can't help you
If you're crossing the street I might be there

And I call you baby I will and I do
Persuade you in though I know that we're through
I let you think that I'm yours when I'm not
Keep you here though I'm ready to drop the last line

Breaking it up, before it's on
Breaking it up, it's already gone
Breaking it up, I didn't mean to fraud
Breaking it up

I might be there
If you're going abroad I can't help you
If you're crossing the street I might be there

Breaking it up
Breaking it up

And it's only doubts that we're counting On fingers broken long ago I read with every broken heart we should become More adventurous

Artist- Rilo Kiley
Song of the day- More Adventurous

Two things will always hold a great deal of my heart and returning to one of them tomorrow, LA, feels like I'm also returning to my musical heart of this band. And as I begin to contemplate what to do next in my life, I look back on all my adventures so far and feel pretty old, but something inside keeps pushing me to more adventures to be more adventurous. That I've found so much on my journey already, I've found so many loves so many homes that get harder and harder to leave that I wonder what's still calling me ahead. But I've learned the not knowing is part of the adventure. The faith of it, the knowing that you hear a voice in the distance and you keep going towards it. The dream inside of you. It was put there for whatever reason and no matter what it is, a family, a career, a place, a person, an idea, a feeling, a something you have no words for it's there for a reason even if you ignore it, think you are doing what's close to it, dreams are apart of you, and the adventures you take towards them shape who you are and are "becoming" as a professor of mine would say. So here's to riding that wave of adventure and seeing where it takes you.



And it's only doubts that we're counting
On fingers broken long ago
I read with every broken heart we should become
More adventurous
And if you banish me from your profits
And if I get banished from the kingdom up above
I'd sacrifice money and heaven all for love
Let me be loved, let me be loved

And if my brain quits, well I guess then that's just it
And if my hands stop working you can call me lazy
And if I get pregnant, I guess I'll just have the baby
Let it be loved, let me be loved

I've been trying to nod my head, but it's like I've got a broken neck
Wanting to say I will as my last testament
For me to be saved and you to be brave
We don't have to walk down that aisle
'Cause if marriage ain't enough
Well at least we'll be loved

I felt the wind on my cheek coming down from the east
And thought about how we are all as numerous as leaves on trees
And maybe ours is the cause of all mankind
Give love to make more, try to stay alive

I've been trying to nod my head, but it's like I've got a broken neck
Wanting to say I will as my last testament
For you to be saved and me to be brave
We don't have to walk down that aisle
'Cause if marriage ain't enough
Well at least we'll be loved

You know what I'm sayin' Can't stand still while the music is playin'

Artist- Neil Diamond
Song of the day- Cherry Cherry

At the end of a quarter I like to party with a celebratory song for making it out alive. Though I might be jumping the gun if I bomb a final, I think a little Neil Diamond will get me in the mood to kick a test's butt. And arguably my most favorite celebratory song is today's and always puts me in a great mood and the desire to own a tambourine and become a backup singer for the cool dancing. Plus I find it kind of adorable watching old people get excited and do embarrassing clap dances in public. So here's a little end of the quarter cherry on top for you or anyone out there looking to celebrate....cherrycherry



Baby loves me
Yes, yes she does
Ah, the girl's outta sight, yeah
Says she loves me
Yes, yes she does
Gonna show me tonight, yeah
She got the way to move me, Cherry
She got the way to groove me
She got the way to move me
Cherry Baby
She got the way to groove me, All right

Tell your mamma, girl, I can't stay long
We got things we gotta catch up on
Mmmm, you know
You know what I'm sayin'
Can't stand still while
the music is playin'


Y'ain't got no right
No, no you don't
Ah, to be so exciting
Won't need bright lights
No, no we won't
Gonna make our own lighting

She got the way to move me, Cherry
She got the way to groove me, Cherry Baby
She got the way to move me, All right
She got the way to groove me

No, we won't tell a soul
where we gone to
Girl, we do whatever we want to
Ah, I love the way that you do me
Cherry, babe, you really get to me

She got the way to move me, Cherry
She got the way to groove me, Cherry Baby
She got the way to move me, All right
She got the way to groove me, Cherry
She got the way to groove me...

In a few weeks I will get time To realize it's right before my eyes And I can take it if it's what I want to do

Artist- Two Door Cinema Club
Song of the day- What you know

My energy is completely gone and I must last a few more days through finals and it seems like it takes every ounce of energy just to keep my eyes open let alone try retaining anymore information. So if you're anything like me, in desperate need for a peppy song to keep you go, worry no more for I found one thanks to my friend Sarah who always seems to come through even musically when I need her. So if you need a little pep, a little dance, or a little excuse to join a dance troop of tiny short wearing brunettes. This one's for you.



In a few weeks
I will get time
To realize it's right before my eyes
And I can take it if it's what I want to do

I am leaving
This is starting to feel like
It's right before my eyes
And I can taste it
It's my sweet beginning

And I can tell just what you want
You don't want to be alone
You don't want to be alone
And I can't say it's what you know
But you've known it the whole time
Yeah, you've known it the whole time

Maybe next year
I'll have no time
To think about the questions to address
Am I the one to try to stop the fire?

I wouldn't test you
I'm not the best you could have attained
Why try anything?
I will get there
Just remember I know

And I can tell just what you want
You don't want to be alone
You don't want to be alone
And I can't say it's what you know
But you've known it the whole time
Yeah, you've known it the whole time

And I can tell just what you want
You don't want to be alone
You don't want to be alone
And I can't say it's what you know
But you've known it the whole time
Yeah, you've known it the whole time

Like a moth to a flame Burned by the fire

Artist- Janet Jackson
Song of the day- That's the way love goes

As I chopped a bunch of various Wisconsin delicacies aka cheese, meats, and relish trays tonight I believed I found my new calling in life and was pretty sure I would be fine getting paid to peel carrots for a living as long as the 90s music station was playing on my TV. We sang along to songs I even forgot existed and was reminded of a few treasures such as this song. The adolescent in me was pretty positive being an adult looked exactly like this video and I'd know I was a grown up when I leaned against the wall and snap danced, had my toenails painted by various men, was friends with artsy hipsters with dreadlocks and apparently Jennifer Lopez the dancer not the singer. And as I cut vegetables with a photographer, editor, and documentary film maker I thought perhaps maybe I'm close to being an adult. I just have to find a guy with dreadlocks and work on my snap dancing at coffee shops because frankly I don't want Jennifer Lopez as my best friend.


Janet Jackson That's The Way Love Goes by carmlo01

Like a moth to a flame
Burned by the fire
My love is blind
Can't you see my desire?
That's the way love goes
Like a moth to a flame
Burned by the fire
My love is blind
Can't you see my desire?

Like a moth to a flame
Burned by the fire
My love is blind
Can't you see my desire
That's the way love goes
Like a moth to a flame
Burned by the fire
That's the way love goes
My love is blind
Can't you see my desire?

Come with me
Don't you worry
I'm gonna make you crazy
I'll give you the time of your life

I'm gonna take you places
You've never been before and
You'll be so happy that you came

Oooooh, I'm gonna take you there
Oo-ooh hoo-ooh oo-ooh
That's the way love goes
Hoo
That's the way love goes
That's the way love goes
That's the way love goes

Don't mind if I light candles
I like to watch us play and
Baby, I've got on what you like

Come closer
Baby closer
Reach out and feel my body
I'm gonna give you all my love
Ooh sugar don't you hurry
You've got me here all night
Just close your eyes and hold on tight

Ooh baby
Don't stop, don't stop
Go deeper
Baby deeper
You feel so good I'm gonna cry

Oooooh I'm gonna take you there
Oo-ooh hoo-ooh oo-ooh
That's the way love goes
Hoo
That's the way love goes
That's the way love goes it goes it goes
Oooh that's the way love goes
Reach out and feel my body
That's the way love goes
Dontcha know
That's the way
Like a moth to a flame
Burned by the fire
My love is blind
Can't you see my desire
Like a moth to a flame
Burned by the fire My love is blind
Can't you see my desire?
That's the way love goes
(repeat til song over)

I didn't mean to waste your time So I'll fall back in line But I'm warning you we're growing up

Artist- Brandi Carlile
Song of the day- Turpentine

I'm beginning my much needed education of Brandi Carlile before I see her this summer with some very educated megafans that by only after a few songs I can highly see why. And as you've noticed I like almost any song involving not sleeping even though the majority of that time in life and in songs is spent over thinking over analyzing over doubting over wishing and under dreaming, it's amazing how poetic that time can be till you wake back up to normal time and fall back in line again. So for those outside the lines tonight, this one's for you.



I watch you grow away from me in photographs
And memories like spies
And salt betrays my eyes again
I started losing sleep and gaining weight
And wishing I was was ten again
So I could be your friend again

These days we go to waste like wine
That's turned to turpentine
It's six AM and I'm all messed up
I didn't mean to waste your time
So I'll fall back in line
But I'm warning you we're growing up

I heard you found some pretty words to say
You found your little game to play
and there's no one allowed in
Then just when we believe we could be great
Reality it permeates
And conquers from within again

These days we go to waste like wine
That's turned to turpentine
It's six AM and I'm all messed up
I didn't mean to waste your time
So I'll fall back in line
But I'm warning you we're growing up

We're OK I know we're OK
These days we go to waste like wine
That's turned to turpentine
It's six AM and I'm all messed up
I didn't maen to waste your time
So I'll fall back in line
But I'm warning you we're growing up

My heart warned me this time But I need to believe you, so I do, just for tonight

Artist- Alison Krauss
Song of the day- Sleep On

It's the first night in a while I can actually rest my brain without the worry of getting up early in order to frantically stay on top of things. I am utterly exhausted, was given free eye cream from a pitying makeup lady because my restlessness is THAT obvious. And here I am sleepy yet awake again. Which I think means it's time for another rendition of my favorite sleep songs. This isn't actually a nice calming song to sleep to but perhaps it's my issue with sleeping that makes me obsessed with songs pertaining to sleep. And with the new Alison Krauss Album soon at hand it reminded me of one of my most favorite and less known tunes about a broken heart that can only express her feelings when others are unconscious. True Krauss's voice can emotionally affect me more than just about anything but the way she sings this song in particular always got to me. So much that I needed to share it, even if it meant the only way to was through this really ugly sunflower depiction that if I look at it too long starts to freak me out. So feel free to close your eyes and enjoy another non sleeper.



Could your heart ever be mine?
Your arms hold me so close to you all through the night
Your eyes gaze into mine
Sayin' I should believe you, I always do, I don't know why

Cause you taught me a lesson the hard way one time
Told me you loved me but then changed your mind
I never told no one how I hurt down inside until now

Sleep on

Could your heart ever be mine?
My arms hold you so close to me all through the night
My heart warned me this time
But I need to believe you, so I do, just for tonight

But you taught me a lesson the hard way one time
Promised to love me but then changed your mind
I never told no one how I hurt down inside until now
Sleep on

Somethings wrong when you regret Things that haven't happened yet

Artist- The Submarines
Song of the day- 1940

Some bands just make me giddy being in their presence and happier about life, and cuteness and rainbows and ice cream and summer and daisies. That kind of optimism is exactly what I'm looking for right now. And the married duo the Submarines are too cute for words and always bring that happiness to their music, even somehow when they write an entire album about splitting up, only to fall back in love after exchanging their songs. What's more optimistic than that? Blond braids and a daisy filled xylophone? correct! But the opening lyrics of the songs I tend to always sing to myself when I get into a worrying frenzy and I think it's rather fantastic advice. So feel free to pass it along.



Somethings wrong when you regret
Things that haven't happened yet
But it's a glorious day when morning comes
Without the feeling of alarm

So rise, and shine
Nows the time to be alive
To stay awake with me a while, and smile

You couldn't sleep for the awful fright
That kept you up in bed last
But curious shape shift in the dark,
They vanish with the sunrise spark

So rise, and shine
Nows the time to be alive
To stay awake with me a while, and smile

So rise, and shine
Nows the time to be alive
To stay awake with me a while

So rise, and shine
Nows the time to be alive
To stay awake with me a while, and smile

Somethings wrong. . . .

When this memory fades I'm gonna make sure it's replaced With chances taken Hope embraced I hope I told you

Artist- Paramore
Song of the day- Miracle

I've been running to Paramore a lot lately, I find it helps in the keeping me from losing my mind as well as not passing out. But this song also reminded me of something a lot of people keeping reminding me of lately when i get super stressed out about school. I'm supposed to be here. Literally God has promised me two things in my life (besides the obvious christian stuff) that I'll always have people to love and that He'll get me to where I'm supposed to be. And honestly not to downplay my smarts but I should not have made it this far in nursing school. I should have failed a while ago. I hate science, don't care about the human body or how to take care of it, I avoided taking Latin on purpose in highschool or tried too hard in chemistry because I was 100% certain I would NEVER be in health care. Then god likes to prove me wrong about most things in life. And I might fail sometimes, I might fail wednesday or another day, I will probably accidentally kill someone someday (but let's not dwell on that just yet) but He's gotten me this far. And all the studying and smarts won't get me anywhere if I am only relying on myself. If I could do it myself I wouldn't be a walking miracle and that's what my life is, every part of it's not my own it exits cuz just maybe God's gonna do something great with it. Maybe not save a trillion lives, maybe not ace or even pass every test, but quietly if you look close enough you'll see something greater. I think if you look at yourself close enough too you'll see something greater. Something more than the perfect score or the perfect career or the perfect life, you'll see just what a miracle you are. So this one is for you. Yes you who are reading this right now, have faith in your own little miracle.


Paramore - Miracle (Live At Norwegian Wood)
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I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I
When this memory fades
I'm gonna make sure it's replaced
With chances taken
Hope embraced
I hope I told you

I'm not going
cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

We've learned to run from
Anything uncomfortable
We've tied our pain below and no one ever has to know
That inside we're broken
I tried to patch things up again
To cut my tears and kill my fears
But have I told you how I..

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
Oh why

Get it right this time (this time)
Let's leave this all behind
Oh why

We'll get it right this time
It's not faith if you're using your eyes
Oh why

I've gone for too long living like I'm not alive
So I'm going to start over tonight
Beginning with you and I

I don't want to run from anything uncomfortable
I just want, no
I just need this pain to end right here

I'm not going
Cause I've been waiting for a miracle
And I'm not leaving
I won't let you
Let you give up on a miracle
Cause it might save you

Yeah, it might save you
Oh, it might save you

It's not faith if, if you use your eyes
If you use your eyes
If you use your eyes

Put your dreams away for now I won’t see you for some time I am lost in my mind I get lost in my mind

Artist- The Head and the Heart
Song of the day- Lost in my mind

Often nearing the end of a quarter and the coming of a huge test, I get to the point of studying so much I forget what day it is, when to get off the train, common sense things like eating and the information I'm actually studying turns in the porridge in my head and I forget how to connect the pieces and make sense of anything even things like do i turn left or right to go home? I stumbled upon this song as I was detoxing from studying at the gym and I was like yep I think I'm lost in my mind. So if you are feeling the same today, this one's for you



Put your dreams away for now
I won’t see you for some time
I am lost in my mind
I get lost in my mind

Momma once told me
You’re already home where you feel love
I am lost in my mind
I get lost in my mind

Oh my brother
Your wisdom is all that I need
Oh my brother
Don’t you worry ‘bout me
Don’t you worry
Don’t you worry
Don’t worry about me

How’s that bricklayin’ coming
How’s your engine running
Is that bridge getting built
Are your hands getting filled

Won’t you tell me my brother
Cause there are stars up above
We can start moving forward

How’s that bricklayin’ coming
How’s your engine running
Is that bridge getting built
Are your hands getting filled

Won’t you tell me my brother
Cause there are stars up above
We can start moving forward

Lost in my mind
Lost in my mind
Oh I get Lost in my mind
Lost, I get lost, I get lost in my mind
Lost in my mind
Yes I get lost in my mind
Lost, I get lost, I get lost
Oh I get lost
Oh I get

you could let it down jump into the river baby easy as it sounds it's never quite as easily done

Artist- Local Natives
Song of the day- Who Knows, Who Cares

I had to say goodbye to my dear roommate Jen tonight who has introduced me to so many lovely things like what homemade cookies from scratch taste like, Jersey Shore, true lyrics to Enrique Iglesias songs, gogo dancing in andersonville, car dance parties, hiding in the dark as we called cops on our loud neighbors, mash potato pizza, naps in between bars, and fantabulous music like today's artists. This song seemed appropriate to send her off right on her new adventure. So here's to roommates, new adventures, and the awesome people you meet along the way.


i've been going down
down into the river baby
listen to the sound
it's something only god knows
you figure it out, i can't stay
water's in the clouds
is my life about to change?
who knows, who cares

so we took a van down to colorado
where we ran into the dead
i took you by the hand
know that even with your doubts, it's ok
take into account that it's not about to change
who knows, who cares

you could let it down
jump into the river baby
easy as it sounds
it's never quite as easily done
the current has us now, it's ok
take into account that it's all about to change
who knows, who cares

no one's been there
but i don't care
i know all have been there
i don't care
i know

There's a fire starting in my heart Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark

Artist- Adele
Song of the day- Rolling in the Deep

I can't express how obsessed I am with the new Adele album. I have surpassed just wanting to have her voice, even if just for a day. I want to be Adele, and not just because I'm pretty sure I could get anyone to fall in love with me if I sang her track "One and Only" the way she does...though that's a blog for a different day. I want to be awesome and British with excellent hair, the uncanny ability to wear tall hills, and sassy painful lyrics oozing from me with retro flair. If I was her, I'd just sit in a chair and rock out to my own voice all day too. Today's song I currently adore not only for its excellent drum rhythms, sword dancing and plate breaking, but also it has that energy and inspiration of turning over a new leaf, of the beginning of something new, of taking the bull by the horns, saying this thing was gonna be awesome but then sucked but I'm gonna get the hell back up and keep going. She inspires all of this by sitting in a chair, and thus concludes why I want to be Adele.



There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,

Finally, I can see you crystal clear,
Go ahead and sell me out and I'll lay your sheet bare,
See how I'll leave with every piece of you,
Don't underestimate the things that I will do,

There's a fire starting in my heart,
Reaching a fever pitch and it's bring me out the dark,

The scars of your love remind me of us,
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
I can't help feeling,

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Baby, I have no story to be told,
But I've heard one on you and I'm gonna make your head burn,
Think of me in the depths of your despair,
Make a home down there as mine sure won't be shared,

The scars of your love remind me of us,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
They keep me thinking that we almost had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
The scars of your love, they leave me breathless,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
I can't help feeling,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,


(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Could have had it all,
Rolling in the deep,
You had my heart inside of your hands,
But you played it with a beating,

Throw your soul through every open door,
Count your blessings to find what you look for,
Turn my sorrow into treasured gold,
You'll pay me back in kind and reap just what you've sown,

(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
We could have had it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
It all, it all, it all,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

We could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
And you played it to the beat,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),

Could have had it all,
(You're gonna wish you never had met me),
Rolling in the deep,
(Tears are gonna fall, rolling in the deep),
You had my heart inside of your hands,

But you played it,
You played it,
You played it,
You played it to the beat.

Wherever you go Whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you

Artist- Richard Marx
Song of the day- Right Here Waiting

Before there was Brad Pitt, before Frightened Rabbit, Coldplay, Michael Vartan, and even NKOTB, there was one pop god who held my sister's heart with the puffiest mullet of them all...Richard Marx. I could not think of a better goodbye song to end my week long dedications and send my sis off to the west coast in style. A cheesier pop lyric could not be written to best express my sentiments. So this one's for you my dear sister. Till we see each other again, I'll similarly be right here in my puffy hair and empty stadium piano, even perhaps one day traveling the world, but always still here for you...and hopefully as big of a hit with the Asian population as the Marx!



Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain

If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance

Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I'll be the other hand that always holds the line Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine I'm strung out on that wire

Artist- Nickel Creek
Song of the day- When you come back down

Perhaps my most favorite goodbye song of all time is from one of my most favorite now broken up groups of all time, the very blue grassy nickel creek. It's sad but sweet with just the right amount of hot mandolin playing and heavenly harmonies that make me miss the band and pretty much everyone i've had to say goodbye to. The one's that stay in your heart even after they're gone, the ones you've hugged and partied with in the good times and cried with even over the phone in the bad times. The ones you know you will always be there for in the ups and downs. To the goodbyes you never let go of in your heart, this one is for you.



You got to leave me now, you got to go alone
You got to chase a dream, one that's all your own
Before it slips away
When you're flyin' high, take my heart along
I'll be the harmony to every lonely song
That you learn to play

When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down

I'll keep lookin' up, awaitin' your return
My greatest fear will be that you will crash and burn
And I won't feel your fire
I'll be the other hand that always holds the line
Connectin' in between your sweet heart and mine
I'm strung out on that wire

And I'll be on the other end, To hear you when you call
Angel, you were born to fly, If you get too high
I'll catch you when you fall
I'll catch you when you fall

[Bridge:]
Your memory's the sunshine every new day brings
I know the sky is calling
Angel, let me help you with your wings

When you're soarin' through the air
I'll be your solid ground
Take every chance you dare

I'll still be there
When you come back down
Take every chance you dare,
I'll still be there
When you come back down
When you come back down